me me me! I want to be friends on facebook!
taken me ages to catch up...
bee - my DH left me last March (he had he fecking nerve to blame me - my obsession with losing weight, my depression, being suspicious etc
). He buggered off to live-in at work (another part of the long story). We managed to sort things out and he came back in time for anniversary at the end of June. It was a difficult time, and I am still in a bit of turmoil in my head now (though that may ease off with the end of the job), but like you, I can't talk to anyone in RL (my old best friend chucked her husband, lived with 2 women - not at the same time BTW - ceased to be my best friend by her weird attitude, and is now apparently with a bloke. My current "best" friend drives me mad, and is a bit too childlike for serious stuff - other than buying shoes
. I can't open up to my family, ever. The only person I can talk to is DH. MN (my AN/PN thread and the odd weight-loss thread have been my lifeline for too long
) and if I started a MN thread they would brand him a "twunt" and chant "leave leave" etc - probably whilst baging saucepans or waving burning torches
. He might be a bit of a deluded wanker, but mostly he is fine. I do think my ADs might be to blame ATM though. Doesn't help that DS2 and 3 cannot sleep in their own beds... and that DH is never here when it would be useful). It is v. difficult when they aren't 100% honest about things like pubs etc... no advice ATM, but rant if you need to.
Ooops, sorry, far too long post.
Have been AWOL at the beach with Dsis yesterday (trying to blot out a BAD day), and sleeping, and today been baking with the boys for the produce show "childrens domestic" section tomorrow, and forcing DS1 to find all his woodwork and stuff that he had lost in his room. DHs birthday. SW gone to pot (though I did fab yesterday as I can't eat on the beach!!!!!)