Hello. Newbie here. Newbie to the thread that is. Hope you don't mind. Have bobbed about on various weightloss threads but never really stuck at anything. Was just thinking to myself today "Nothing tastes as good as slim feels" and then noticed this thread, so I think it was a sign.
Anyway, today I found some resolve. I don't know how it happened but i just suddenly felt that I should just start now, beginning right this moment, no excuses, no procrastination. The time was now. I really haven't haven't felt like this about sorting my weight out before, I think up to this point, I just didn't care enough.
I caught myself thinking or perhaps half thinking "It's your fault I'm fat" while I was looking at DH the other evening and thinking about my bad habits. Do I really think that? I asked myself. Well I don't actually but it stopped me short. I know I have to take responsibility for myself and my actions.
I have about 3-4 stones to lose to get to normal weight for me, 2 stones to get back into the healthy weight bracket. It's been a long time since I weighed 9 stone, pre DC. So I don't have a goal in weight terms, more in terms of clothes size. I'd like be a 10-12 again. I think that is sensible and achievable.
I know that the thing that has been stopping me before is that the reason I began to gain weight is that something very horrible happened to me 11 years ago. I haven't "been the same person" physically since then, possibly psychologically either. I was diagnosed with PTSD in fact. I guess I worry that without my protective layer I will feel vulnerable again. I mean, people don't look at you when you're fat. Their eyes kind of glide over you, and that has suited me just fine.
But the truth is I'm not particularly happy in myself, and not being fit, active and confident is a large part of that. So I need to deal with it, be brave, and do the right thing.
I weighed 79.8 kilos this morning. I ate a cinnamon bun and coffee for breakfast, then had my epiphany mid morning. Now I am going to be following Zoe Harcombe's diet.
Thanks for "listening" if you got this far.