Hello friends!
I haven’t checked in for ages and I’m still back reading. I don’t have a hope of all the mentions that I wish to make, so I will just say that it’s so wonderful to read all your updates and I’m so so incredibly proud of us all.
I’ve been in an intense maelstrom at work for the past month and I’ve come out of the end of it feeling knackered but proud of myself for hanging on and doing my best. Surviving rather than thriving , but I made it!
as a result my weight loss journey hasn’t been on my radar at all, other than noticing my formal work wear has gotten too big . Belatedly noticing…. I had to safety pin my trousers at the back on one memorable day and hope my blazer covered it up. Dear me.
anyway, I’ve weighed myself this morning for the first time in about a month and am flabbergasted that since the day of my first jab im now one LB short of losing 4 stone in total!!!
im now sitting in the middle of a healthy BMI. Which feels like a great place to be, and I’m determined never to creep back into the obese zone.
I’ve got one dose in a 5ml pen and a 2.5 pen in the fridge. So im officially entering ‘titration’ .
im going to see how i get on with 2.5. Im happy to stay on a low dose for as long as i need to. I recognise how fortunate I am to be able to afford this.
I can’t describe the difference in my life as a result of my weight loss. It’s not just the physical impact - no more breathlessness, sore joints, sluggishness, aching body.
it’s the way I feel inside. It’s the way i present myself emotionally to the word. My confidence.
Thats a complicated thing to examine for me. I absolutely detest the prejudice that is associated with being bigger. It’s wrong and I hate it. I’ve seen the difference in how people treat me now I’m smaller, in contrast to how I was treated as a bigger woman. But the fact remains, I am so much happier.
On a lighter note, I can now share clothes with my 16 year old daughter which is novel. She has gently steered me away from my old (not skinny) skinny jeans and baggy jumpers, and I am loving my new wardrobe.
I genuinely believe I wouldn’t have gotten to this point without you all. I was terrified of starting MJ and ashamed of myself for ‘needing’ it. This group has helped me so much and I can’t thank you enough. I have felt heard and seen and supported. You are all amazing.
Sorry for the gushing.