Thank you @NewbieMJthat really touched me.
I also have the audio book & it’s the way to do it I think. I have the physical book too but I couldn’t progress past the first few chapters. The idea that we aren’t the voice in our head but the one listening to the voice was so mind blowing I couldn’t move past it. No such worries with the audiobook & the rest of the book absolutely deserves to be heard. I’ll give reading the book another go now. I want to make highlights & notes all through it.
I am also in a gently starting co-counselling group. Learning the simple process of supportive talking, listening, being heard, no judgements is surprisingly (and interestingly) powerful.
and the sober dancing is a physical & emotional release. Dancing alone but also connecting with others. As Crowded House so aptly put it “Together Alone”.
and the almost daily yoga.
not too long ago I was living in a one bed london flat with 2dc, sleeping on sofa bed, going to office full time with mad school childminder run, insane traffic, no time to myself, no exercise, not having a dreadful time - we were happy despite the stresses etc. but zero time for me. I’m glad to have moved on from that.
I really feel like I’m hitting a sweet spot in life right now. DC older & I can go out without them. Curiosity reawakened, permission granted, feeling braver to just be myself in the world, no fucks left for others judgements or negativity, (Most of the time 🤓), healthy food, exercise.