It’s a Long one. Sorry
I’m awake stupidly early on my day off which I’m annoyed about. Didn’t work last night - never do Fridays - and wanted a decent lie in which didn’t get due to below
as the saying goes - I’m on a rock and hard place
I have been reducing mj 15 to 10 (skipped 12.5) then went to 7.5 for past couple of weeks and plan was to go to 5 out of a 10 to ease cost
im losing weight even not trying and eating more 600c a day to maintain as tdee says and now lowest I’ve been for 25yrs when I did ww before
im getting hunger with the lower doses but also know that’s a good thing and control it
its the pain that I can’t do
past week or so I have been having pain in hips and ankle again - we know mj has the magic effect of helping other symptoms and pain was one of them for me
and didn’t reliese how much it helped till now. Yes in the early weeks it seemed better and less aches and you kinda get used to that
since dropping I am feeling more pain
so do I increase back to 10 for a month or so and see if pain goes. Don’t want to hobble on holiday as will be the first one in 20yrs I’ve been slim so want to be more active
did I cut down too quickly as hasn’t been a month on each one
I don’t think I can drop to 5 if aching like this
ideally I wanted to stop for cost and to see if can do on my own but not sure I can deal with the pain esp as been practically pain free for the last 12mths
as a single parent and paying for everything myself (get £28 cms wow) for dd and myself , plus a loan for ex that’s in my name so I’m a screwed, it’s getting tight hence why wanted to stop for the cost
so I keep on say 10 or even increase to 12.5 but that’s the huge cost ones so don’t really want to
and see his pain in hips /ankle are
and put on my credit card (along with my divorce after holiday at another £600+) so 3mths and a divorce is gonna to be just over £1k
and see how pain is
I know no one can really tell me. If money wasn’t an issue it would be easy to stay on it for pain , rather than weight loss but at the moment it is
esp as when away don’t get paid as self employed so that dents my budget even more
sorry for rambling