Sorry to hear about your DP pink. extra challenges facing this alone for you.
Had a bit of a meltdown on Friday night. I'd written some curriculum docs (hard as we are sen so everything is adapted and most ideas are from scratch) but I'm struggling to match the output full time child free colleagues are doing.
But the worst was the overwhelming feeling that most of it wouldn't be used in sept. I can't see how school will be normal until there's a vaccine and especially going into winter. Aibu? There's personal anxiety there regarding asthma and the winter; viruses are my nemesis.
Also school budgets; my subjects are resource heavy. I've not considered financial implications. Budgets had reduced to a quarter of what they were 5 years ago and I'd struggled this year to meet what we needed. (Though I'm a good hoarder and squirreler.)
I just overwhelmingly felt my work and efforts are utterly futile. (As they've been several times over the last 6/7 years as approaches changed and the curriculum was overhauled.)
Im writing content for an imaginary alternative universe, where things are normal. Possibly affected by reading ideas about how the curriculum will need to change again to ensure cohesion. But I imagine in sen we are a bit different as its individualised.
Hormones too I expect.
I noticed that a twinkl fb group I'm in had a few young things merrily saying they've not seen much in the way of kids or staff being ill and they reckon full opening will be fine
luckily the contrast to an SLT fb group is v stark; I'm glad I know who is in charge!