So she was 37/8 when she met Harry and had been trying to break into the Hollywood celebrity world from almost immediately after university so say at least 15 years of the Hollywood hustle. That world is brutal for women - even if you have a lot of acting talent you have to play ‘the game’ - the cattle market of auditions, the predators like Weinstein exploiting their power, being ‘on’ all the time to network at events.
For actresses like Meghan who are beautiful but not stand out striking, and okayish actors but not into the craft of acting and doing theatre and breakout Indy stuff, it’s something like The Hunger Games.
It teaches you three big things:
All other beautiful women in your peer group are rivals who you have to beat to get ahead.
You are among hundreds of beautiful women on those red carpets trying to get your photos into the press so you have to be ‘on’ - find your lighting and your pose and the camera instantly as you have only about 30 seconds to get even a glimmer of a chance of being used in a news story or a photo spread.
Everything is transactional - but especially you and your body. You are going to have to do a lot of stuff you don’t want to do to have a chance of success.
So imagine slogging away in that world for 15 years and suddenly the whole world wants to take your picture, crowds turn up to see you, you are world famous beyond the world of celebrity.
I think it kinda broke her mind - it was 30 odd years of dreams and 15 years of hard hustle and now it was beyond her wildest imaginings - people were curtseying to her.
I don’t think she mentally could make the transition fast enough and it sent her over the edge.
I’d have been interested to see if things would have spiralled so badly if Harry had listened to William and taken even just an extra year of dating and introducing her slowly to the world he lived in before getting engaged.
She definitely never got out of the habit of ‘actress posing’ at events with photographers - I think it was muscle memory - you pose constantly for ten minutes and the the photographer might use one good shot. But the royals get the press coverage anyway and the video footage gets used a lot as well - which is why it looks bizarre to see someone concentrating on doing poses while they are supposed to be talking to someone on an engagement.
Perfect example of this is the coat flicking video compilation while she was very pregnant. She’s constantly flicking the coat - ONLY on the side of the photographers - to the side so that the still images will show the photogenic bump and not a bulky coat.
And because she’s doing it while she’s supposed to be listening to whoever they are meeting at an engagement she looks completely insane.