Astonishing programme. Nick is my new hero. Not just for the investigation that he did, but for his incredible emotional insight and honesty about how bereavement had left him feeling. The void, the anger ("ready for a fight", any fight), a willingness to recognise that he too was caught up in a kind of ugliness (the online sleuthing).
All of those things spoke so truthfully to the messiness of grief and I wanted to hug him. Especially when he said, with so much emotion, that the moment of his child's death wasn't the worst moment. There was a long period after he said that during which he was too tearful to finish speaking, and I was aching to hear how he would complete this statement, because I lost my son too and the moment of his death wasn't the worst.
In fact, when he did finish his statement, it didn't especially speak to my own experience, but that didn't matter. Everyone's grief is different. What mattered was his emotional insight and frankness, which helped me (and I'm sure many other viewers) to feel not alone in some of our uncomfortable and disorienting reactions to bereavement.
As for Meg, that poor girl.