More ugly sobbing last night!
Absolutely gutted to see Serena with Holly, I was really hoping the Waterfords would be in shit for losing their handmaid AGAIN and June would be at the Red Centre with Holly. Never put 'Nick/Nicole' together until seeing it on here. Fred is an absolute shit, he is so disgusting. The way he asked June whether that's all the thanks he gets (vom).
Serena trying to feed Holly made me shudder, wasn't surprised though. I am surprised she allowed June to cuddle and kiss the baby though when she finally handed her over for feeding - but I agree that she only allowed the feeding to alleviate her own guilt.
Not sure what to make of Lawrence, I'm inclined to think he's on the 'good' side... but I also see the 'Nazi scientist' type in him. He has a damaged Martha and Handmaid - he likes 'broken' people or he's being charitable. He is also keeping his wife around despite her hating him and her hatred of what he created, the Martha sassed him, his house is a mess with contraband items lying around for the women to see and he drinks alcohol with the Handmaid, which they are forbidden to have. I don't think he'll want to rape her either, his wife certainly won't. He was definitely creepy questioning Emily, both about her being a lesbian then about her FGM, but maybe he's curious as to where she lies - he seemed to like that she had tried to escape and had ran over a guardian. Perhaps he chose her specially because she has been in the colonies that he helped create and she's an intellectual biologist, maybe he has some weird anthropologist experiment in mind. Really interested to see where that goes.
Eden and Issac, that was barbaric, it really hit home for me that honour killings like that STILL happens in our own world. It struck me how most of the audience were ok with what they were watching, and that Serena thought it was appropriate to bring Holly - although there is no way she would allow anyone to sit her. I hope it makes Serena realise that even the most pious and innocent (and a Waterford) of children aren't immune from their own nature and Gilead's punishments - her own child included.