Just Surf, feat Lost and The Small Mercies

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Hello and welcome to our support thread for anyone struggling with cocaine. Whether you want to quit, cut down or are someone whose life is affected, all welcome.
We offer non judgemental advice, tips, some silly chat and most importantly lots of support and encouragement.

Come and join and we'll all help each other surf the urges!

Out of nowhere I have a huge Friday night craving on a Monday.

Argh I get that sometimes Serial. Just craving that medicinal taste at the back of your throat and that first rush I'm triggering myself now
I'm going to prescribe you a hot bath and early night I'm afraid. It's funny how these cravings come out of nowhere.

Get well soon Gingerbread's knee. You're right I think the way to get round not having an off switch is to avoid certain situations. It's a shame really as I turn down invitations because I don't trust myself. Hopefully that will improve when I get bigger balls of steel/better at surfing otherwise I'll turn into a hermit.

Luckily it's a work night, so early bath for me!! How can I walk away on a Saturday but want to sell my soul for it on a Monday?!

Morning! Has everyone surfed off?

I was clucking like a turkey last night. Found it really hard to cope with the cravings and actually proposed getting some to Mr Lost who vetoed the idea, oh dear. I could barely conceal my annoyance at him being so sensible.
Feeling fresh as a daisy this morning though (as much as a middle aged woman can be).

I don't think you can get much more humdrum and mundane than January. It's my birthday on Monday so having a few drinks tonight. My sisters will be there so will be on reasonably good behaviour just planning to get pissed

Hope everyone is alright?

Happy birthday for Monday lost!! Still surfing here - like you last night I was gagging for some. Am so glad that I resisted, have actually done useful stuff this morning!

It's lucky we're not neighbours Serial It would have been party central yesterday.
Well done on the doing of useful stuff.

Hello, still here! Still not drinking, smoking or anything else. Getting back into running very slowly and mad busy at work. All VERY dull...

Well done both of you for surfing the urges and special thanks to Mr Lost for his help

Happy Birthday for Monday Lost and enjoy your sensible drinks tonight!

Wowsers Hooch - go you!
Am imagining me and lost being neighbours!!!

You'd probably put your place up for sale after a couple of months Serial and go into hiding.

Oh and brilliant Hooch- not drinking, smoking or anything else ahem and exercising too is remarkable. You must feel like a new woman!

Off for some mature birthday drinks in my local. I want to remain on board but a small part of me is thinking "I hope someone slips me a wrap for my birthday- happy days". Argh I'm a twat.

I don't actually feel that great. I'm sure the alcohol etc kills all the germs! Will continue for a while longer possibly only a few hours as a sort of social experiment. Will keep you posted

Social experiment
I find I feel a bit crap when I'm being really healthy too. I've been deadly tired all week, despite having shit loads of early nights. It better not be the menopause, dreading that!

Ok ish here but have had a few slips. Impressed by you all. Booze def my enemy. Not doing so great.

Happy Birthday lost !
It's mine in a couple of weeks and I have to say I can't imagine celebrating abstemiously. I've been on and off my board, reading and lurking, not much to add except well done and good luck to all with your NYRs.

Morning surfers.
Great to hear you're still bobbing about Dusty I thought maybe you'd stocked up, bought a safe and turned into drug cartels with a yacht.

Abstemiously; great word but doesn't exactly describe my birthday drinks. I did accept a few sneaky lines in the toilet but it wasn't complete carnage. It seemed like nearly everyone is doing coke these days I managed to avoid buying some to take home to hog to myself like I'd usually do which is something I suppose.

Are you alright Ponz? It's so easy to slip into drinking more when you're trying to limit another vice. Like a Bash em down game of vices popping up. It helps a bit to spill your guts on here sometimes, well it helps me to avoid putting my head in the sand about it.

Anyway, no choice but to keep clambering back on board.
Have a chilled Sunday x

Stopping at a few lines is progress Lost! Especially on your birthday weekend!

It's a progress of sorts! After that first line last night I did suddenly think Well this evening just got a WHOLE LOT better and everything's great. Probably not the best attitude but I suppose I'll just have to live with my brain not being wired quite right.

I think I have very similar wiring!

Happy birthday lost. Yep need to get hold of the boozing and the booze: coke cycle. Not easy. Tend to go into shall when stuck in bad behaviour. Will try coming out...

Pulling you out of your shell to give you a big hug Ponz

I might joke about and be a bit glib about things but this is the hardest thing I think I've ever tried to get a handle on. It's not easy at all and I often feel like I'm going in circles on the wrong path and Fuck what am I doing?
And of course this time of year sucks eh? The weather's shite and it feels like the winter will never end...
I think my mood might be due in part to going a bit mad last night though.

Chin up Ponz x

Hello Dusty and Ponz, good to hear from you! Honestly don't beat yourself up Ponz, it's a crap time of year and no drinking hasn't made me feel that much better. You may all be relieved to hear that I am no longer Mrs Smugface as had to resort to a glug of vodka at 4am this morning as couldn't sleep Also majorly pissed off as couldn't do planned run today as been feeling ill again not due to vodka! Although had a glass of wine at lunch and feeling better now. Hats off to anyone who does Dry January!

Dry January can feck off. We're all trying - and that's the main thing. Ponz - you'll be ok, you're having a blip. It happens to all of us.

Hooch I think your body's gone into shock with all this healthy stuff Hope you feel better soon. One glass of wine is positively virtuous.

I'm sure we'll all be better at Grovember. All we have to do is grow our facial hair for the month of November.

Ha good idea Lost, that sounds much more manageable!

Grovember - when we grow Columbian style bandito moustaches? I'm in! Am currently drinking wine and trying to pretend that it's Friday. I also have a HUGE craving. I can almost taste it.