Just Surf, feat Lost and The Small Mercies

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Fell massively overboard last night and most horrific of all I'm going for Christmas drinks with two of dh's bosses and their wives who I've never met tonight.

Does anyone have any miracle cures to feel better and get rid of puffy bloodshot eyes? Hooch didn't you say something about taking vit C tablets? I desperately need to get my mojo back by 7pm. Panicking.

You deffo will need a nap! Plus loads and loads of water Lost.

You'll be ok by 7!

Oh Lost, just seen this. Yes lots of vitamin C get the 1000mg tablets, and take two, also those Nourishment drinks that are like Milkshake. Try and have a nap and a long hot shower (not together ) You will get through it, another drink will help too. Good luck, been there and got the T-shirt

Sorry about that panic this morning, woke up with the horrors. I convinced myself that I'd be fine today. What an idiot!

Look a bit less like a frail 90 year-old after bath and blow drying my hair, water and lots of custard creams. Off to Tescos so will get the magic vitamin.

Still have the nagging fear. Going to aim for sipping drinks and not being an idiot tonight.

Hope everyone else is ok. Serial you're a legend.

Hope you have a good time lost!

Glad you're feeling a bit better now. I'm seeing Mr Rehab tonight... say no more

Good luck lost! My snowboard is wobbling plummeting tonight

I feel positively holy this weekend!

Hello everyone, hope you are all well. Will read through posts I have missed at some point! So basically I got worse... started missing work..: gambling all night too and just generally being wrecked. Last Sunday after not having slept all night I confided in my family. They were shocked and upset that this was going on but ultimately have been supportive. I now have a 12 steps sponsor who has been brilliant taking me through the 12 steps, and Would recommend AA or NA or CA WITH A SPONSOR for anyone who is serious about stopping. 6 days sober for me now... best I’ve done in a while! Good luck to everyone for a not very white Xmas :-) xx

That's great news Ping and your family sound brilliantly supportive. It can't have been easy to confide in them and admit you weren't coping.

Hope all fellow surfers aren't suffering today?

The Christmas drinks with dh's bosses was quite enjoyable after a few drinks. They all seemed to be on a mission to get pissed!
It went so well Mr Lost and I ordered 2g when we got home to celebrate
I feel poisoned this morning. This whole weekend has been a disastrous step back into old habits.

Ping - well done mate!

Lost - hope you can have a good rest today!

Well done Ping that's a really brave step. Sounds like you're going in the right direction now.

Lost I can keep you company in the self loathing department today. Feeling crap after seeing Mr R last night, nearly got stuck with him today as thick snow here and couldn't give him a lift home, luckily trains were running but had to trudge up to station with him as he didn't know the way. Every time I say I'm never seeing him again then boredom sets in. Hope you feel better soon, blame in on a Christmas blip x

Hey Ping, massive well done on starting the programme. It’s the only thing that’s worked for me, I would not give up the peace of mind I now have for anything. Just one word of advice, if you don’t ‘get it’ straight, please don’t give up. If you keep going back it will work in the end.
Also, Russell Brand’s book Recovery is absolutely brilliant at demistifying the twelve steps, and very funny also obvs!

Flat, you are an inspiration!

Still a Russell fan! You are now officially a professor of surfing ph.D.

Dusted myself off and back on board here after my weekend debacle. cringe.

Lost and serial, thank you.....but I definitely don’t consider myself an inspiration. I just got fucking desperate to stop, and terrified when I realised I couldn’t, and that actually I was getting worse not better.

Before you think I have gone all saintly.....I would still DO Russell in a heartbeat 😜

Me too flat, I bet he's deliciously filthy!!

Feeling that things are out of control is scary. I've been on the verge of that recently. I know what I should do, and I know there are some friendships that maybe I should avoid - but I can't yet.

I'm very adept at ignoring those frightening thoughts. It's bloody hard to admit the Big Problem to yourself flat so that deserves some admiration! Realised today I definitely need to stop using Christmas as an excuse in my head or it's all going to go tits up.

I saw Russell first guys.

Evening surfers!
Are we all out at sea in the spirit of Christmas? It's very quiet, how has everyone been getting on?

I've not had a great week of surfing. After a weekend of excess, I fell overboard again on Wednesday and this week has been a tired blur. I've lost my way a bit and using Christmas as an excuse.

Come home early as it's our work Christmas do. All Very Sensible colleagues so I'm taking my surfboard with me. To the BeefEater.

Hey ho Lost, it's that time of year when normality goes out the window. Back on your board when you can. Enjoy the Beefeater! I swerved the work do after my A&E 'incident' and have not drunk all week. I'm so behind with Christmas as I've actually had to work like crazy rather than my usual doing online shopping in the office and extended lunch breaks to the shops - so inconvenient!

Hope everyone else is ok x

P.s just seen elsewhere that MN are looking for threads of the year. I would personally like to nominate 'Serial and the oven dish' but don't think we have much chance as it had to be deleted

You know, I remember spotting the first message of these, and feeling so stunned and slightly scared that someone had the guts to reach out. Was it Serial, or Ilostit? All I know is when I see you gals on totally different threads, about totally innocuous stuff, I am charmed, as it shows that however that we all have crosses to bear and our shit going on, still you reach out with a hand hold and advice and input, no matter how consuming troubles are.

I dip in and out, as things got much better, but I've noticed an uptick in certain things, and while it's still fun, I know it won't be if I carry on.

So thank you for being there, for bobbling along, sharing and holding. It is so incredibly valuable to have you there.

I just wanted you ALL to know.

Hi jerry I'm glad things have got better for you. You're welcome to re join us anytime and thanks for your kind words.

I love how we can all be brutally honest on here and no one recoils in horror. It's something which is hard to do in real life without shocking or upsetting people!

Hooch the I only went to borrow an oven dish thread for thread of the year? I can see that escalating and Serial being interviewed on This Morning about it.
Well done by the way on staying clean and sober this week x I'm really behind on Christmas too.

Our Christmas do at the Beefeater was quite fun albeit sensible, which is good. I think I've got to relearn how to enjoy a few drinks without anything else and not be thinking in my head "Well this is shit" as my colleagues were all friendly and pleasant.

Lost, you've just described what I'm thinking on every night out I go on!

Am still aiming for clean until Christmas, might go for the rest of 2017!

Jerry, thanks for your kind words! And hooch - that made me laugh! I'm the only drug addict triggered by oven ware!!

Aha I'm planning on having lots more shit nights out in the run up to Christmas. My body can't take much more overboardness.. felt like I was going slightly mad last week.

Serial you're well on your way to winning the Surfing Through Advent Crown.
I'm looking forward to seeing you with your hair done on Loose Women, talking about your thread that won Mumsnet and the serious issue of oven dishes.