Just Surf, feat Lost and The Small Mercies

[ILostItInTheEarlyNineties]

Hello and welcome to our support thread for anyone struggling with cocaine. Whether you want to quit, cut down or are someone whose life is affected, all welcome.
We offer non judgemental advice, tips, some silly chat and most importantly lots of support and encouragement.

Come and join and we'll all help each other surf the urges!

Just scrolled back a bit more, yes I made it thanks serial but the workload is fucking relentless.

Welcome to fated too

I fell off a little bit, not hugely - so I don't feel too bad today. Thank god!

Glad to hear you're behaving Cleaning. Shame about your friend leaving last night though. Addiction is a selfish thing. He could have at least pretended he left the oven on or something!
I have visions of you at the school Christmas fair running a stall, having spent the morning baking perfect mince pies and handcrafting table decorations out of holly.

Could have been a Hell of a lot worse Serial. Sending you an I Showed Some Restraint certificate.. That's something I need to work on!

I've woken up feeling fairly normal which is still quite a novelty for me on a weekend.

Well done serial!

Good point Lost, he just jumped up and put his coat on!

I have been up since half 7 baking Christmas cupcakes and putting up some decorations with ds so you're half right

Oh and I've cleaned like a motherfucker of course

He he I knew it. I'm a bit in awe.

Bloody hell cleaning!

Hello again.
Not that I ever really left. My story is not a good one. Served divorce papers this week, and just fell apart. Not unexpected, but when you see the bullshit in black and white, it's like a rerun of the whole merry hell.
I have a great DP. He is tapering me by hiding everything, and providing me with reducing supplies. It has to stop. It will stop.
It's been 1-1.5g a week for ages. Never more than half in a day, but it's like a mental crutch. It is always diluted, so it feels like I have a 'stash'.
It doesn't even really help me now. I think it's just the process of sneaking a line. Makes me feel like I cope better.
I'm not coping at all though.

Hi welcome back Charlie It's been a while!
I remember you'd split with your dh and had a lovely new dp. And he does sound really supportive.

Getting your divorce papers must have brought back all the awful feelings from that time. I'm sorry you're struggling . It's so easy to fall into doing it everyday . In the end you're doing it because you're so fucking tired from the last lot so not even a great high.

I think you had a medical condition that you were trying to self medicate? How's that going?

Anyway, sending you some positive thoughts. We'll hold your hand if you want to surf with us.

Hi Charlie so easy to fall back into in stressful times and find yourself with a daily dabble that just ends up keeping you under Rather than Afloat. It's such a devil of a drug. Sounds like your DP gets what you need to do and is supportive which is brilliant. Do you have a date to get to a clean day and end the supply or does that feel like too much? I only buy from one person and if he fell off the earth I'd be delighted as weirdly I'd have the strength not to ever find another outlet. I really would. I have a small stash left after 2 nights of several lines but I know he's likely to be in town before Xmas. Arghhhhh.

Morning all.
Hope you're ok Ponz sounds like you've been hitting the shoe this weekend! It is a Devil of a Drug, how right you are. It always seems to find a way to sneak up on you.
It sounds odd but it feels at times like it's got a grip in my head and will never leave. Perhaps I'll just have to always live with ignoring the cravings for a high.

I didn't touch it this weekend although it was preying on my mind, and feel quite healthy and alive this morning. [smug face]

Enjoy the rest of the weekend surfers x

Well done lost. Smug tree for you. I'm not feeling too bad altho overwhelmed with that pre Christmas planning bollocks that manages to take the magic out. DD1 has made a great start to year 7 though am proud of her although the homework load has been a bit ridiculous as she's a perfectionist and cannot bear to do things by halves. I can see that GCSEs are going to be intense!

And how the f does one surf through Xmas and new year??

Well done cleaning but agree it's a bit off for folk to bugger off cos you don't wanna join in but maybe he thought doing you a favour not using around you it carrying on trying to persuade you?

Hooch how did you get on this weekend ?

Well done to mini Ponz, it's so nice when they do well. Even my DS who can be a little sod at school is knuckling down now he has GCSEs to get back on with.

Yes well I did see Mr Rehab on Sat and went a tad overboard. It was that or sit in and be bored shitless. Didn't feel that bad yesterday either. I think the comedown God was kind to me

This is the trouble Hooch I'm finding life can be pretty damn boring without a livener. Catch 22.

How does one surf through Christmas?
Is this a Christmas cracker joke Ponz? Is the answer On A Snowboard

Yes to the pre Christmas planning bollocks. I'm mildly panicking that I've done virtually nothing. Spent a tense half hour untangling all the Christmas lights last night. Why did I throw them all randomly in a box after last year? Was I on drugs? probably

I'm at work fantasising about a fat line, a whisky chaser and a fag. In that order. A ridiculous notion for a Tuesday afternoon.

How does one surf through Christmas?
Is the answer On A Snowboard ?

Classic Lost!!

I haven't attempted getting the tree up yet. I hate every minute of it. The lights are always tangled even though put them away nicely. I swear a lot whilst unbending the branches of the fake tree and wrapping the bloody lights round. Def need at least a drink
for that! Hope you're all surfing along x

Firmly on my snowboard here. Usually wait til School breaks up for our tree but I'm embracing it early this year and getting one on sat.

I'm planning to be embracing my tree this weekend too rather than anything else.
Keeping busy and distracted seems to be my main tactic these days. It's not getting any easier though. I love being off my tits in the pub at Christmas.

I'm aiming to be on board until after Xmas. Too much to do to waste time feeling shit.
Although like Lost I also enjoy being off my tits in the pub!

Oh hello Serial was just thinking about you in a weird stalkerish way
That's a bold aim. You might win the golden surfing crown for your surfing through advent! Like one of the wise men.
Sorry I can't stop making Christmas puns.

Haven't had any for 2 weeks!!

Well done Ginger welcome aboard. Any tips welcome!

Welcome ginger. How's everyone doing. December def feels like choppy waters

Wobbling terribly here. Been another manic week at work and feel like I need a 'reward' also DS on a sleepover. Thankfully I would have to leave the house and it's too cold plus I have lots on tomorrow. Sipping vodka and thinking about having an early night. Hope everyone else is surviving!

Wobbling here! Had a few after work drinks and now tunnel vision. My brain isn't cooperating in a sensible way.
I agree with Ponz December is proving to be a choppy month wish I was chopping something

Been on a big night out. Stayed on board but my god I kept thinking that a line would liven things up. Hope everyone is in calm waters tonight.