Just Surf, feat Lost and The Small Mercies

[ILostItInTheEarlyNineties]

Hello and welcome to our support thread for anyone struggling with cocaine. Whether you want to quit, cut down or are someone whose life is affected, all welcome.
We offer non judgemental advice, tips, some silly chat and most importantly lots of support and encouragement.

Come and join and we'll all help each other surf the urges!

The anticipation is always better than the event isn't it? I was a bit worried you'd do the lot after so long off it Ponz, great restraint there.

One line on a Sunday isn't disastrous though (am I allowed to say that? ) Perhaps you will be able to limit it to that..? You need a damage limitation plan.

Wishing everyone a good week

One line is nothing. I admire your restraint. I'd still be up now snorting. Either chuck it or come to terms with doing it. Not an easy choice my friend.

I know Serial. Weird amount of restraint but mainly because my DP doesn’t know so I can’t really be off my tits at home with the family! I’m giving half to my brother next week. Maybe I am really getting out of the woods. Don’t have huge desire for more but then haven’t been drinking. If I can stop ordering I can stop using. No shit Sherlock I hear you say.

How’s everyone doing?

Wow I wish I was your brother . What with the limited drinking, perhaps you are emerging from the woods Ponz. You can always rely on Serial to say it how it is!
It's so easy to slide back to where you started though. I think I'm proof of that.

Doing alright here at the moment. Still balanced precariously on my board.

I also wish I was ponz's brother! Had a dream about doing a line last night. Can feel a slight rippling of the waves.

Oh Gawd the Coke Dreams! So disappointing when you wake up. It all feels weirdly vivid.
Like the Euphoric Recall Ponz was talking about. I sometimes get that when I hear an old clubbing tune, although that could be a flashback.

Quite a reserved dream though Serial So well done on just the one imaginary line.

If only i was as self controlled as my sub conscious!

We could pop round Ponz's and pretend we're her long lost brothers? You've got your hipster beard Serial #longshot

Not sure what's wrong with me. It's effing Tuesday and I'm longing for a line! I'm going to try the Early Bath and Pyjama route.

I'm seeing us as Kevin and Perry!

We'd definitely be arguing over our share. That's So unfaaaiir! I might even run off with the suitcase Sick boy style.

Oh lost, you wouldn't do that to your (pretend) brother would you?!

Sorry course not Serial bro Bros before er drugs.

Hey brothers wish you were here and we could get through a shoes worth in an evening. Then it would be gone.

Me and Kevin are ready at a moments notice ponz!

How are we all doing? Am firmly on board and have a locked down super quiet weekend looming. No pub, no friends, no coke. Shit really isn't it?!

I'm Kevin then?
It's Friday at last. It's been a long week. I'm actually in a really good mood today and it's one of those lovely cold crisp sunny days. Hopefully I won't self sabotage later.

Look at your weekend as relaxing and laid back Serial rather than shit Unfortunately even house arrest doesn't stop me calling my friendly neighbourhood dealer. I don't have much planned either..

Hope all fellow surfers are oiling their boards for Friday.
Are you alright Dusty? You've been quiet lately x

I'm totally on board tonight! Have a good evening everyone!

Anyone up?

Hello fated, I think we were all having a nana nap!!

Morning surfers, I'm feeling pretty damn good today! No hangover, no come down, i feel fresh.

Morning
Last night was a blooming struggle. I just started to think everything was crap and dull without my old friend coke. I surfed through it using lager as a crutch. Probably not the best approach.

Not as fresh as Serial but haven't woken up feeling like my head is full of rocks. So that's a bonus.
Well done Serial the struggle is worth it!

Fated plenty of surfboards to go round if you want one

Yo Kev, i was feeling like that at about 10. So i just went to bed feeling all sorry for myself! Another clean day beckons though.

What are we like eh? I was pissed off with the world last night. What a head case!
Big up Perry my main man.

Hello all, I'm fine, been on a 5:2 thing. Five days on my board, two days off. Can't say I'd recommend it!

Hey Dusty so you're sort of on board but dangling your legs in the water? Better than being washed out to sea my friend!

It's so easy to fall into a pattern of being good all week and then having a blow out on the weekend. After years doing that I think my brain has become programmed to think weekend= get the buzz on.

Trying to fight it, it's week 3 and I'm practically sitting on my hands and having fucked up internal arguments with myself. Fuck this is hard.

Hey Lost, try and keep strong, 3 weeks is brilliant. It's around this time that the memory of how shit you feel afterwards disappears and it seems like a good idea. It's only been a week for me so I can still remember well that last Sunday I was fit for nothing all day and the house has been a tip all week. Only just got it straight and trying to surf like a goodun as DS is at his dads and Mr R has been texting. Have told him I'm having an early night and hoping I stick to my guns. Good luck everyone x