Jive Bishop and The Surfettes: Surfing on

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Welcome to our support thread for anyone struggling with cocaine. Whether you want to quit, cut down or are someone whose life is affected, all welcome.
We offer non judgemental advice, tips, some absurd chat and most importantly lots of support and encouragement.
Come and join and we'll hopefully all help each other to surf the urges!

Your children are in your "care" not "car"

Thanks for the input.

Thanks Monday. I have attended CA meetings in the past. There really is no magic cure for cocaine addiction. It is not physically addictive so there is no detox or withdrawal. It really is purely a psychological addiction. I think we are all aware there is professional help out there. This thread is really just a friendly support group.

None of us have ever posted about driving while under the influence, let alone with children in the car.

I can't even drive!

Serial you're so funny. I feel like an absolute mess today unfortunately. Barely holding it together. Hopefully things will look better in the morning.

You'll feel a million times better tomorrow. Take it easy and get an early night!

Sending a hug lost.

Hi Monday. We are all doing our best here. Humour helps to motivate us and helps us not feel ashamed. Shame never cured anyone. Empathy and understanding does.

Personally I veer wildly between the contemplation and action phases of the cycle of change which underpins recovery. I don't think I'd walk into a specialists service. I might do something online though.

And you are right that for some us alcohol is definitely an enabler if not an issue in its own right.

Thanks for bothering to give us your insight - a lot of lurkers wouldn't.

Day 6 here. Scared about tomorrow as will be knackered and going out and shoe isn't empty = high risk situation.

For the record I've never ever driven a car with children in it having had anything more than a small beer.

I'll be on tomorrow trying to help you stay afloat Ponz x You can do this.
I agree I think we all realise the seriousness of our predicament and I'm all too painfully aware of my failings as a person.
Can't analyse it anymore than that today, my head hurts.
Thanks for the hug. I was wishing for a hug at work today and for someone to tell me it's going to be alright!

Thanks Lost for offering a steady hand on the board tomorrow. Sending you love darling - a good night's sleep can make the world of difference. It can make us all so vulnerable in ways we aren't always aware of and I think we take it because we are vulnerable in the first place.

Oh I SEE!!!! Care!!!! Not car!!!!

God I'm slow.

And not even funny.

Jeez.

You're a wise soul Ponz.

Sorry I meant your previous post was wise not the car/care error.
I'm not that with it today, probably best to head to bed..

Taxi for Lost!

I think I love you serial

Ha thanks for the taxi. I think I lost the plot yesterday. Everything felt surreal and I was really down and tearful.
I'm putting that behind me now and thinking no further than a clean weekend with lots of nice early nights.

Have a great Friday all. Entering the Danger Zone..armbands and encouraging words available.

Welcome back lost.

Frantically oiling my board here.

I'm glueing myself to my board!

I will not sniff the glue - honest!

I'm stapling myself down with industrial staples.

"A woman was airlifted to hospital this afternoon in a bizarre sequence of events which found her superglued to a large surfboard. A spokesman said she is recovering well after having two toes removed.
Mrs Tester said "It's been an eventful afternoon"

Hello Surfettes. I'm Rick James and I used to have an awful problem with the stuff, just like you (and like the real Rick James).

I got rid of my problem by dumping my DP, moving countries and only associating with non-drug users. That's how bloody hard it is.

I haven't had a sniff of anything for 8 years. Sometimes I still have nightmares that I'm high but in my life right now. What I never get is the craving to use cocaine.

I'm just trying to say - it's hard but not impossible. If you can get a few years under your belt, IME, you can reset. I can even dance all night in a club fuelled by a few wines and redbulls! Thats only been in the last 2 years mind. But it is possible.

Lots of love Surfettes- I've really enjoyed lurking on your threads. It's been very helpful to me to see where I was, I've understood a lot more about addiction and why cocaine is so bloody insidious and sneeky. I think I've forgiven myself (a bit). I wish you all the best, however things work out for you.

(Hope that wasn't too me, me, me)

Thanks Rick that means a lot. It's great to have someone on the other side (so to speak!) cheering us on. And nice to have a lurker that's not aghast and horrified at our drug use.

It sounds as though you've pulled yourself off the coke merry go round and that gives me huge hope and optimism, especially the bit about being able to reset. One of my fears is that I've ingrained this habit deep in my brain.

I'm nominating you as the thread mascot. We'll get you a furry costume and you can cheer us on

That said, please don't hesitate in giving us any words of advice learned from your own experience. I definitely need a reality check sometimes!

Aw thanks, Lost, but I know nothing 😂 apart from that's it's nice to look back at crazy nights fuelled by gak and to have now crazy nights fuelled only by crazy. It's true that a door gets opened by drugs that can never be closed. But you can enjoy the door being opened without ripping the damn thing off it's hinges every weekend

I also married someone who is totally against drugs but is full of life. I'm thankful for that. When you aren't up and down all the time you notice how much fun is in the world anyway. You all sound clever and mad enough to be creating all kinds of rich experiences without the drugs.

I'm waving pom-poms for you lot!

You're right about the door. At the risk of sounding mad, I feel like that. I've opened a door into a world where everything's more colourful and sparkly and now the door doesn't shut properly!
I will bear your wise words in mind; no need to rip the door off it's hinges and throw myself through it . I'll just acknowledge it's ajar.

In reality, I am quite an upbeat cheerful person. I'm not sure why I keep putting myself through all this shit. I'll probably never fully understand but feeling full of good resolve today.
I've been slipping back into more regular use lately and it's been really messing with my head.

Evening Campers! Clinging onto my surfboard for dear life here. Home alone and Mr BI has already called to see what I'm up to. Said I was going shopping which was true at the time but has now been cancelled. Rather bored as been sat in office on my own all afternoon too - sob. Trying beer and fags, could go either way