Wave your snorkel in the air like you just don't care!

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Lost, say something wise!

Hmm it's difficult Witty because everyone seems to get on when they're high. Do you always do coke when you're together? It must be hard to separate the two.
I know I get on like a house on fire with dh when we've had a few lines..

You need to throw a wet J cloth at him for his OK comment!

Mothers day and my husbands birthday lost. Only thing that helps me is a dark room, naproxen and sleep. Can't get that unfrotunately.

Witty a weekend alone could be a good thing. I'd certainly enjoy it.

It has got to the point where we take coke every weekend but not all weekend. So he might stay 2 or 3 nights but we'll only take it on the Saturday night. So we're not going on weekend long binges. But it's definitely become a habit - our Saturday nights are very predictable.

Yeah that's what we were like when I joined this thread and was getting so sick fed up of it. Have taken it maybe five times since xmas which is a massive improvement compared to what it was like before it. One night we were out. One night our friend was just home after three months and the other two I think were just at home. Cutting downs the first big step.

So you're not doing it all the time you're together, Witty. I understand the bit about it becoming a habit, I think we all have that in common

That's awful Got migraines suck. Hopefully the kids will entertain each other a bit and Mr.G will help. Maybe do the dc a really easy dinner like pizza?

In a good mood today, it's Friday and we're both home early today. Neither of us have mentioned anything apart from getting a few beers though

That's amazing progress, Got, you better have my halo!

The irony is that if I can manage to have a couple of weekends off, I appreciate it more as a 'treat' and don't need as much, it's more like it was when I first started. Something to look forward to but not a normal part of the weekend.

Are you still going to your gig tonight, Dusty? It sounds good fun but slightly Danger Zoney

Just messaged OH to ask if he's coming over this weekend. No response yet but I think I know the answer. Don't know whether I should end it to get away from the coke.

Hug for you ((Witty)) it sounds like you're having a difficult time at the moment. It's a lot to think about on top of your work and family problems x

What are those long wriggly foam things they have in pools? That's what I need.
Witty have you told him you want to cut back? Or would he do it anyway and you'd join in

We always called them noodles. No idea if that's the correct name!
I'm throwing a pink one at you Dusty.

Evening all....good to see we have some lovely new surfers....

I am off to my first CA meeting tonight. Very anxious I might see someone I know. Will report back later this evening. Surf on surfers....

He would do it anyway Dusty and just kind of laugh and tell me not to be daft when I say I don't want any.

Well done Flat good on you.

I was advised by a friend years ago to go to a few meetings when I'd got myself in a terrible tangle with drugs. I lived in a horrible flat in New Malden at the time and was pretty desperate.
I was surprised at how "normal" everyone in the meeting looked, and all ages. I did find the surrendering to a higher power stuff a bit much to be honest but it was an NA meeting, and a long time ago. I'm sure it's changed since then.

Good luck, it'll be fine I'd love to know how you get on.

Maybe spend some time apart to get your head round things Witty. He might not realise you're serious? I suppose to him it's a normal thing to do. I can sort of understand that.
When I was at a friend's wedding a couple of weeks ago, I told a couple of old friends I was trying to stay off it and they fell about laughing, and one said later I wasn't "Myself"?

Good luck Flat - I'm sure that it'll be worthwhile. As you can tell from this thread - we are all in the same boat even if our day to day lives are completely different
I'm safely surfing in calm waters, hope everyone else is too x

I'm surrounded by triggers tonight Zig so desperately trying to stay busy. My ridiculous triggers in no particular order:
Friday,
pay day,
it's dark outside,
bored,
bit tipsy,
I'm in a good mood
and I seem to have forgotten what a comedown feels like.

I'm such a twat.

Hi everyone, a quick hello from me. Tonight's distraction tactic is a trip to a shopping centre aka hell on earth with DS and his 2 mates. They are off finding expensive things for me to buy him and I am hiding in the food court. Very nearly overboard as Mr Bad Influence has been texting and wanting to come over. So tempting but have said no. Having said that I am highly likely to go splash tomorrow as seeing another friend who's soon off to rehab a story for another time one last session! Will report back later x

Well done saying no to Mr. B.I. Hooch. Don't forget to drop some hints to ds while he's shopping about your Special Day for mums on Sunday, ahem.

Flat good for you, hope it goes well!
Witty how do you feel about the relationship if you remove all the highs and lows that come with the coke? What is he like as a partner and what was your coke use like before him?
Hoochi wise move saying no if you are out tomorrow
Lost remember how bad you felt Monday, would you rather go spend the cash you'd spend on it tomorrow feeling fresh? Play 're story to the end! Have to admit I feel a bit fuck it tonight. Sister dropped nieces off and said brother in law was just wanting to come here and stay for a drink instead of going out. Made me think hmm but me and th have discussed it and said let's just be good although that little voice is still there.

You're not a twat Lost! They are all perfectly normal triggers. Especially it being Friday and being tipsy. They are my absolute triggers! Hence why I'm not drinking tonight. OH is on his way home and I'm hoping he doesn't have any or am I?

That's a great idea Got to play out the whole night / morning / weekend... Hopefully we can all do that tonight. I am chucking arm bands and noodles left right and centre.
C'mon Surfers - we can do this!! x

The only thing making me think twice is the fact I'm doing slimming world and I'm doin well so don't want to fuck it up by getting wrecked and drinking loads of syns or I'd be diving right in.

Thanks for saying I'm not a twat, it means a lot

You're both right. Let's play the film to the end and stay away from the Fuck It Switch.