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Cold turkey- help me when I'm tempted

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rainbowdash17 · 08/01/2017 04:07

I'm about to go cold turkey from cocaine.
It's time to! Definitely
My weak points are when I'm tempted to buy some (usually evenings)

Can I message on here when I'm tempted for a pep talk on why I shouldn't & reassurance that it's ok?
I think it would really help me

Do you reckon we can do this?

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serialtester · 29/01/2017 17:21

And she balanced the platter on one hand while holding a perfectly behaved toddler in the other!

ILostItInTheEarlyNineties · 29/01/2017 17:30

Tsk, there's always one.
I remember being coerced into manning the toy stall at a fete in the rain with an epic hangover and come down years ago. Smiling and chatting to all the mums and children for two hours nearly broke me. Bad times man.

ILostItInTheEarlyNineties · 29/01/2017 17:34

I had such a headache I thought I would collapse on the grass with a stroke or something and be found later lying under the table dribbling. I've never been so happy to be relieved from a stall.

flatwhite45 · 29/01/2017 17:43

Uber mums are the Bain of my life, as if I don't feel bad enough about my 'skin of my life' parenting techniques....they just make me feel a whole lot worse.

serialtester · 29/01/2017 18:40

Lost, I had a similar experience during my brief career as a "dance mom"!! Flat, please never be an uber mom!

ILostItInTheEarlyNineties · 29/01/2017 19:14

Being a dance mom sounds very challenging indeed. Throw in a bad come down and it all sounds a bit hellish.

serialtester · 29/01/2017 20:19

Have you seen the film fear and loathing in Las Vegas? Was like that.

ILostItInTheEarlyNineties · 29/01/2017 20:28

Just Googled that film, "After a massive drugs binge the main characters fall deeper into a frightening psychedelic other world"
ShockGrin That's some heavy shit, serial you are funny.

The Lost house is going into meltdown with a homework crisis and laptop issues. It's all pretty tense here.

CleaningLikeAMotherFucker · 29/01/2017 21:00

For me the ultimate Shock scene is in The Departed... Jack Nicholson chucking handfuls of the stuff out of a bowl. Although I must say that the consistency of the prop powder used was all wrong Grin

We cooked dinner as a family tonight and feeling relaxed. Good luck Lost!

flatwhite45 · 29/01/2017 21:05

Serial a dance mum? Shock I SO don't imagine you as one of those! Lost I can't get the image of you under a school fete table looking paranoid and anxious, out of my mind. That would have got the uber mums gossiping. Hope things have settled down your end with the homework crisis. My two year old is still up singing the wheels on the bus manically, whilst I TRY to type this and sneak minstrels into my mouth from under a strategically placed tea towel. Think I am going to give up and just get an early night! Halo

flatwhite45 · 29/01/2017 21:07

Cleaning glad you have ended the week happily with your lovely family

CleaningLikeAMotherFucker · 29/01/2017 21:15

Thanks flat! Yy re serial Grin

I feel like a weight has been lifted re giving people the chop

It's a relief. Time to start believing in myself.

serialtester · 29/01/2017 21:18

That's positive clean! I was only a dance mom for a few months. It's why I need drugs!!

serialtester · 29/01/2017 21:20

Lost, I've escaped a similar drama by going to the pub!

ILostItInTheEarlyNineties · 29/01/2017 21:50

At the risk of rounding like a really cheesy dance mom; never stop believing in yourself, Cleaning. Smile
the consistency of the prop powder was all wrong ha ha that's the sort of detail I always look at.

Wheels on the Bus is sweet but maybe a bit draining on repeat Grin. The singing class is certainly paying off.
I did wonder if you might come home from Suffolk and go into a "yay we're home, let's celebrate" mode so glad to hear everyone on the wagon tonight. BrewBrewBrew

Homework now finished. Dramatics have now calmed down.

serialtester · 29/01/2017 22:24

We're all on the surfboard tonight! Fantastic!

CleaningLikeAMotherFucker · 29/01/2017 22:26

Yep I'm and polishing it in honour of us all being on it! Let's have some organic houmous to celebrate Grin

ILostItInTheEarlyNineties · 30/01/2017 08:38

Morning everyone. Finished the weekend on a high (probably wrong word) yesterday after all having a clean Sunday. Smile

Here's to a strong week for all of us Flowers.

GotToGetMyFingerOut · 30/01/2017 09:44

Morning everyone had a day spent with the family yesterday with my mobile off the whole day. Resisted Saturday night and just had a nice night with a bottle of wine. Felt great yesterday and did housework and washing then went a big walk and to the cinema and an early night.

Feel great today no downer 👍

Lost that sounds agony your husbands eye! Hope its better today.

CleaningLikeAMotherFucker · 30/01/2017 09:58

Sending lots of positive, clean thoughts to everyone today SmileBrewCakeFlowers

flatwhite45 · 30/01/2017 10:15

Yay!!! Well done all!! I am currently dancing around my living room (flash dance style) wearing a leotard and leg warmers, singing "don't stop believing" . We CAN do this people!!

ILostItInTheEarlyNineties · 30/01/2017 10:17

Thanks for the positive vibes Cleaning.

GotTo Well done this weekend. Filling your weekend with other things and keeping busy is sometimes the best way.
Thanks, the eye is ok, just a bit scratched so no lasting damage. He went to work without the cream in as it makes his vision all blurry!
Keep strong, we're here if you're struggling Smile

ILostItInTheEarlyNineties · 30/01/2017 10:20

flat did you drop an E? (joking Grin)

It's an amazing feeling to get a whole clean weekend under your belt. It doesn't matter how you did it, you did it!
Please send some of your amazing energy my way...

ScoobyDoosTinklyLaugh · 30/01/2017 11:03

I just got sucked into scanning through this thread as it was in actives last night. Well done everyone!! Flowers and Wine to all who need them!

I have a story - I am a (unlikely) success story!

A good few years ago I had a heavy cocaine habit. It went hand in hand with the barwork I did when I was younger. I think for about a year or so I kept up weekend/odd cheeky weeknight use which was fun but definitely had a negative influence at the time. I also did some really shitty things while on it, which dented my self esteem and worth. My relationship was fucked up because of it and I knew that I did not have a healthy relationship with coke at all. Me and DP moved to another close by city so I could stop going out so much. I still found a way and we broke up.

After the breakup my usage went up massively. To most nights, before my day job, sometimes in my dayjob, at home alone. I also hung around with some horrible people at the time who I'd never bother with normally. I must say I did make my top three closest friends during my cocaine days though!

Anyway I'm not sure how long the really heavy days lasted for but basically it stopped because I ran out of money and couldn't sustain the multiple jobs I was doing to pay for all the partying while I was partying so much. Also it coincided with a summer where there was some lovely very cheap ecstasy pills around. There were definitely some very sad and scary times where I was frantically googling stuff like 'shit I'm a coke addict' or when friends used to pull me up on my coke consumption I used to make a joke out of it but really I'd be horrified. I think I decided to change my relationship with it when I'd bought a few grams for me to stay home alone with because I thought that was really sad. Maybe. I'm not really sure when the turning point was but there was one.

It took about 1-2 years for the association with drinking to go. I always used to want to ring a bag in as soon as I'd had a sip of something alcoholic Grin but it's gone. I also couldn't listen to certain music without wanting coke. I think coke changes something in your brain but I am proof that you can change it back again.

I still take it now and again but I can honestly take it or leave it. I've had a baby since so my opportunities to go out and get on it are very limited and I like to think I'd never have it in the house. Well I am confident I wouldn't. I'll always be very careful with it now, I've turned jobs down where I've suspected heavy coke use among the staff because I think I could easily get back in the habit if I was around it all the time. Most of my close friends have lost a year or two to heavy drug use but we're all trying to be reasonable people now so none of us take drugs regularly. Festivals and special birthdays. Ultimately, I'll always love getting wrecked by one way or another but being wrecked all the time is not conducive to a nice life.

Sorry if this is rambly I'm on my phone Smile

I read Grace Jones' autobiography the other month and she had an inspiring attitude to drugs. Probably not a good read if your currently trying to stop as it might be a bit too 'inspiring' Grin but maybe in 6 months or so for you all.

serialtester · 30/01/2017 11:47

Well done for knocking it on the head Scooby!

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