Cold turkey- help me when I'm tempted

[rainbowdash17]

I'm about to go cold turkey from cocaine.
It's time to! Definitely
My weak points are when I'm tempted to buy some (usually evenings)

Can I message on here when I'm tempted for a pep talk on why I shouldn't & reassurance that it's ok?
I think it would really help me

Do you reckon we can do this?

youre going to have to get used to a different kind of happiness, but it depends how much you want this. I managed to kick a very severe speed addiction many years ago, and it took many tries to finally kick it. I just couldnt go on with that being the only way I could feel happy. I used to be happy before my addiction but it replaced EVERYTHING. It took a long time before I was content with other stuff and getting pleasure that wasnt an intense drug high. I think it ruined me in that respect for years.

Have you thought about rehab

Glad you're back Cleaning Sounds like you're getting some perspective on things. Sometimes you have to protect yourself and like flat says, protect your sobriety. I think you've made the right choice for now. You're too vulnerable for that shit at the moment.

You can't beat a good pair of marigolds . I won't be seen cleaning without my yellow ones.

Wise words, Branleuse. It's nice to hear from people who have pulled themselves out of the shit and survived.

No, not considered rehab but I think I should have had counselling of some kind after the miscarriage. I also think I should have been more selective re family members a long time ago. I come from a very conservative background and it is quite frankly stifling at times. I run the risk of becoming the 'black sheep' with the decision but I'm at peace with that.

The decision to go NC with my only sibling I mean.

I'd like to go into a nursing home by the sea where I'm wrapped in a blanket and fed warm milk with a tot of brandy in it. Is rehab like that do you think?!

And sweet nurses stroke your hand and bring you cheese toasties.

Fueled, I was so touched to read your post, thank you for the encouragement! So glad you kept reading long enough to realise how normal we all are (well as normal as you can be whilst permanently wearing a bouncy aid). Hope your cold gets better and do pop in again soon.

Cleaning, glad you are back on board (nice marigolds I must say). Bran it's brilliant to hear from someone who has pulled through, I have considered rehab, but feel it would be enormously disruptive to my family (3 dc's under 8 and a DH), however I haven't ruled it out, as I am acutely aware of the enormous damage I could potentially do to our lives if I don't get on top of this awful addiction. What was it that finally helped you kick it brAn?

I could murder a cheese toastie!

Bran, what resonates with me from your post is having it's really hard work to relearn how to enjoy things without the intense drug high. It's always there, thinking "this would be so much better if I had a line"

Yup me too serial!

Having a lovely family afternoon. By family I mean us 3 only. Genuinely have so much more clarity today.

I take full responsibility for my bad choices but a lot of the voices in my head that make me feel shit are parroted versions of various comments made by relatives over the years.

Yesterday was a real eye opener

Enjoy your family today, cleaning and be kind to yourself today.

Lost how is your husbands eye?

We've just got back, I thought we'd be in and out, silly me!
He had a tiny splinter of ceramic tile in it so they removed it and given him cream for the scratch and a lecture about safety glasses. And he's stopped saying Argh my eye now.

Thanks for asking and massive well done on this weekend for you. You should be proud of yourself. Hope you caught some crabs.

The crustacean variety I mean, that sounded weird

Lost - hope you're keeping an eye on him! Arf!

Flat - big well done to you this weekend!

Aye (see what I did there?)

Lol at the crabs

And sorry lost didn't see the post about you dh. Hope he's ok!

Ha ha! Yes caught a few crabs thanks lost! Glad your poor DH is better, enjoy your Sunday afternoon together. He sounds like quite the action man

This is the first Sunday in months that I have been clean, such a great feeling. I can't say I am proud of myself though, the cravings were VERY intense, and if we had been at home, I would have definitely caved! That is quite worrying. I have nothing like your willpower, really hope that changes soon, or I may have to seriously consider a permanent move to Suffolk.

I had no willpower last night flat. Only staying indoors and this thread got me through the cravings. It's a day by day, hour by hour thing when you're on the surfboard!

Clean Sundays are great though!

Well you didn't pack up and drive home from Suffolk on Saturday night did you? There's some will power in you don't worry about that. You'll get there. Next on the list, a clean weekend at home.

Bwah ha ha at action man. A slightly greying, damaged one with a dodgy eye that no one wants to buy at the school fete.

School fetes are great aren't they? Really separates the men from the boys. Remember delivering my shit fairy cakes in a carrier bag to a cake stall at the same time as uber mum rocked up with her perfect ones on a silver platter covered with a pristine white tea towel!