Cold turkey- help me when I'm tempted

[rainbowdash17]

I'm about to go cold turkey from cocaine.
It's time to! Definitely
My weak points are when I'm tempted to buy some (usually evenings)

Can I message on here when I'm tempted for a pep talk on why I shouldn't & reassurance that it's ok?
I think it would really help me

Do you reckon we can do this?

Mum, can we go crabbing?

No darling, Cream closed down years ago.

I need to work out a way to make some money off the back of this psychic stuff. Although it's only been two things so far that I've predicted.

Cream closed years ago and your dad wouldn't get in with his trainers on.

We are silly. Hope you actually get to do some crabbing!

Hope Mr and Mrs Cleaning are in their pyjamas, all tucked up in bed.

I'm off to the shop and possibly a detour. This threads not helped me at all and infact has weakened my resolve and actually all the chat has made me want it more than normal 😂

Got, we're a bunch of silly reprobates who know what it's like and never judge. Even after 3 whole weeks I'm struggling but this thread and talking to people who get it has REALLY helped.

Sorry, GotTo. Really hope you don't take a detour. We all want you to stay on the thread

Royal fuck up, we're leaving and I know how this is going to end up.

So so so upset and dh is fuming. Not with each other, sorry I'm not being clear. I am so angry that I don't even know what to feel.

Basically we only ever had plans to have one child but of course the baby we lost still hurts. We had done really insensitive comments tonight about how sad for ds that he's an only child, why don't dh and I have anymore? Was there some kind of problem? I'm devastated and feel like such a failure that I might as well go and fuck up my life some more.

Trying so so so hard not to cry in front of ds, my wonderful wonderful ds.

some not done

Cleaning, ignore that kind of shit. Go home, snuggle, enjoy your DS. You poor thing. Do you want me to throw you an arm band?

Please.

And a box of kleenex because as soon as my baby goes to bed I'm going to have the mother of all breakdowns

As soon as your boy goes to bed tuck yourself in too. You're not a failure or a fuck up. Sounds like you've had an awful evening. If you do flip the fuck it switch we're always here.

Tomorrow is another day. Always remember that.

I've smoked 40 fags today - a record! Cravings have gone and I'm looking forward to another non fucked up Sunday. Thanks to this thread and the lols.

We were doing so well. Positive about the future abs excited. Now I feel like I've been punched square in the face.

Got a taxi as I'm sober but head is all over the place. Dh has had wine.

I didn't realise that I was failing my child by only having one. And my habit can't have helped the baby that I lost.

A part of me actually wants to die right now.

and not abs FFS!

We are so far from home and my car is still going to be there. I want to scream

You're future is still good and your DS is much loved. Fuck everyone else.

Cleaning it's all still a bit raw. How awful for you. It's ok to feel the way you do. You're not a failure for God's sake and please don't start beating yourself up.
We're here if you need to vent.

Yes, vent away. The surfboard will always be here. I'm throwing rubber rings into the dangerous waters all over the shop (at great personal risk!)

When I get thinking about the miscarriage my thoughts become incredibly dark.

Thank you for your kind words but I'm going to come off here for tonight. I don't know how it's going to pan out. My head hurts so much it's like someone's literally got a vice on my temples.

My so called family really can be cunts sometimes.

Talking of waters, I'm about to have a bath! This bath thing is getting out of hand. I'm developing gills!

I appreciate the rubber rings. But maybe I'm beyond help. What a fucking mess.

I hope we can stay off it tonight. If I'm feeling less depressed later I might resurface.

Thinking of you. Life is shit sometimes that's for sure. I've definitely had times when I've hated myself, the decisions I've made and seen no point in struggling on. Not every day feels dark like this, you know that.
You're strong enough, Cleaning It's just been a shit day x

You've had a shit day. Lost is wise (and psychic) whatever happens tonight tomorrow will be better. My rubber rings are rainbow striped luminous ones made for crabbing!

Cleaning: people can be so insensitive! So sorry you have had a crap night. I wonder if there is a bit of envy going on here from your family? You seem really happy with your Husband, son and life in general. Take it easy my sweet