OK Carciofi[deep breath]
My childhood was happy but fairly solitary. I have only 2 cousins who I had fun with but wasn't close to IYKWIM. I was very close to my mothers family who were all lovely, I adored my grandparents and spent a lot of time with them.
I think I really started to think about this as I got older. Now I am very aware that I have no-one who has the same memories as me, the childhood experiences of holidays and christmas and the like were all with adults many of whom are no longer here. I can't say to anyone "Do you remember that holiday in Westport House where the elephant was behind a flimsy fence?" because I was there with my grandparents who have both died since. I remember a fantastic summers afternoon at the beach with my aunt who is now in her 70s, but soon I will have no-one to reminisce with, IYKWIM.
When I look at my own 3 dc and the fun they have together and the love they have for each other I feel sad that I had no-one to share my childhood with. My dc have no aunts, uncles or cousins on my side of the family. We talk a lot about how lucky they are to have each other and they are very close and get on well.
My mum is very fit and healthy, but who knows what will happen as she gets older and the responsibility of caring for her will come to me alone, not that I begrudge that in any way, but I will have no-one to share that with.
I am VERY sentimental, so these things matter a lot to me, and I possibly over-romanticise the idea of the kind of family I would have liked to have had, but nevertheless, I really feel that the greatest gift I have given my children is each other. I tell them that a lot and I think they believe me! I still have pangs of guilt that dd has no sister, I would have loved a sister, not only when I was young, but now to share in the experiences of having our own families. Of course there is the possibility that if I did have a sister we wouldn't get along, but I still look enviously at my friends and their close relationships with their siblings.
The early years with 3 were hard and sooo tiring but honestly so worth it. The exhaustion passes and than you are left with the love {I told you I was sentimental }
Sorry, this is a frightfully self-indulgent post, please feel free to ignore it all!