So I’m back from the wedding. It was lovely. The whole thing and I’m so chuffed it went incredibly well for the b&g. They both looked amazing and the love between them. 😍
I’ve been very very ill for the past decade, often bedridden and a series of surgeries. My health is finally starting to improve and have reinvented myself from stage 2 obese, disabled woman to 1.5 stone / 10.5kg lighter, semi able bodied woman - now stage 1 obese. It was awesome.
The bridal hairdresser was so ahead of time that the bride offered me the opportunity to have my hair done and she gave me the most incredible updo. It was like something out of a Jane Austen novel. I cried. Silly me.
We stayed 2 nights at the country home / wedding venue. I wore my 3 new dresses and had a few compliments, especially on the orange party dress the evening before the wedding. The spray tan was great as it obscured the deep purple thread / varicose veins to some extent on my legs. Then I had fresh outfits for both the day and evening. Dd (15) dh and I coordinated colours for the day. One of the bridesmaids (late 20s) complimented my evening outfit (early 50s) that they didn’t get the memo to change! So that was a real boost.
I ended up wearing the back up New Look flats for dancing rather than the kitten heels as there was a lot of uneven flooring but that didn’t make me feel less glam. And a thanks for Spanx. I bought a couple of the very short shorts for the occasion rather than knickers as I thought these would show fewer lines - my dresses all have front slits and intend to get more of the things. I may try the Amazon ones. I need pulling in low down as my stomach has seriously sagged from the surgeries and cutting all the way around my belly button.
For the day dress I wished I’d kept the size 18. I sent it back and kept the 20. I also bought the 16 as they were in the sale (about £70 from £250) to give me an incentive to continue to lose weight after the wedding. Anyway, I ended up wearing the 16 (thank goodness for Lycra) and I shall be selling the 20 as new with tags!
I expected my 15 yo dd to be a potential man magnet as she is rather beautiful, thankfully not. However, embarrassingly I caught the attention of a married guy, who told me he liked me because I was fun. It’s been so long since that happened that I was a bit stumped. My dh is useless at anything like that… and was busy partying and getting pissed… Much as it was nice not to be invisible for a moment, I couldn’t see his wife (who seemed rather lovely and more glam than me) to help me out.
Anyway, I danced most of the night... I could never have imagined myself doing that in my wildest dreams a few months ago due to such low energy. I also lost one of my acrylic nails - oops. Think I’ll live with it and remove / get them removed asap.
Dd, at 15, was mortifying embarrassed at my dancing (lololol), preferring to dance with my more sedate cousin (MOB). Idk if it will last as chronic fatigue has a way of catching up with you. But I told dh, who tried to tell me to pace myself, I wanted to have as much fun as possible and deal with the consequences later.
I’m back home and the scales have informed me I’ve put 2 kg on. Not surprised as the food was rich. I also ate a lot more than usual and it was impossible to do 16/8, especially on 5 hours of sleep both nights. I also drank a fair amount of alcohol. The soft drinks and tonic were also full sugar when I am drinking lots of water and pretty much t-total as it normally flattens me. Am buzzing from finally feeling alive and need to koko now. Idk what winter will bring for my health. But Christmas is 99 days away… so that’s something to look forward to.