Don’t get me wrong, Fuzzy, I was and am beyond delighted with my weight loss. However, I did the physical without any understanding of the emotional impact of such significant weight loss. It can’t be hidden, and it generates so much attention that it terrified me. On top of that, I had no idea what I actually liked, or what suited me. Dressing before was a matter of functionality for me and shopping for pleasure was an entirely new concept. I could never go shopping with friends because I was too embarrassed to admit that JL etc had nothing in my size in store. People still say to me ‘well, do YOU like it?’ and I actually don’t know. Liking clothes is very new to me.
Being here has helped me enormously. Sharing photos and getting feedback, and seeing how other people style things has given me confidence to try new things. As soon as I get feedback here I try and go straight out wearing something so I carry a talisman of ‘I really do look ok’ with me into the real world. It’s scary though!