Hi everyone,
I'm not sure why I'm actually posting this but I'm really struggling atm.
I've been with my partner for eight years and I have two grown up kids from my previous relationship and my parter has four grown up kids from his, we all get on well and there are no issues.
The problem is that we have no kids together and he had the snip before we met. Anyway, he had a reversal about six years ago and bar a chemical pregnancy I've never got pregnant. This was a big issue to me and I found myself resenting the fact he had kids with his ex.
One of my kids had their first baby a few years ago and this seemed to really help me, as both me and my partner became very involved in the child's life - it kind of filled a gap in me I guess.
However, one of my partners kids recently had their first baby and I'm spiralling again!!!!
I KNOW this is my issue and nothing to do with the kids/grandkids, but it's constantly reminding me of the fact there is no bloodline between me and my partner, and I'll never have that with him. I resent the fact his ex got all that and I feel like I'm left with the scraps.
I hate it when his other kids say "So how does it feel to be a real Grandad?" Like FO, he's already a Grandad!!
It feels like they're belittling what me and my partner do have between us and his relationship with his Step- Grandkids.
I also feel like I'm not seen as anything to do with the new baby and all that matters to them is blood. I can't stand it.
I'm resenting all of them atm and struggling to cope with how I feel. It's not as if they've done anything deliberately to make me feel like this, it's just my perception of everything and I don't know how to deal with my feelings.
If anyone can relate in anyway then I'd love some advice etc!
TIA 😊