First of all, I know I'm being unreasonable. I'm trying to control it but this feeling is so deep rooted and strong that I'm struggling to smother it.
When I first met my partner, I knew he had a child and that he had her every weekend and on school holidays. I met her after a couple of months, when she was five, and I liked her a lot and quickly developed a loving bond with her. But the more time I've spent with her, the more she has begun to irritate me (she's a troubled child who demands the whole world to revolve around her, and the full attention of everyone in the room). I know that I should be making more of an effort because the unfortunate way she has been brought up on her mothers side is not her fault and I know that her behaviour is sometimes a cry for help, but she manipulates her dad who absolutely worships the ground she walks on, whereas for me I've grown so tired of this situation that I can't even stand to see her face any more. I don't even want to walk to the bathroom in the morning in case a floorboard creaks and she comes running to me. I can't stand the way she talks, eats, sings the same song over and over again, I can't even sit next to her any more because her presence prickles me. I do not want to feel like this, I want to be the happy family we once were and I know that it's me that's got the problem here, not her. Could this be some sort of natural rejection because I'm pregnant with my own child now? (Mine and her dads) I used to love her and enjoy spending time with her but now I absolutely dread Friday afternoons when I know we have to pick her up for the weekend. I'm going to seek help through counselling but I just wanted to know if anyone else has had/is having this experience and what can help to resolve it? Thank you ladies, please don't be too harsh with your comments, believe me the guilt of feeling this way is already eating me up enough x