I’ve 2 with autism ,I’ve spent over 20 years fighting for help support and education for them.they are both full time at home with on line education.they are happy and supported .
i put their needs first every time .years of tribunal and fighting the LEA paid off
they both have exactly what they need to thrive, education wise .but they don’t leave the house very often ,can’t be left alone ,so I’m stuck 24/7 at home
Looking back ,and knowing what I know now ,the eldest should of gone to a residential school.the violence and smearing and unrinating all over the house ,I coped with ,.no one ever said it’s to much ,you shouldn’t have to cope with that .
we just focused on education and trying to keep him out of prison
I’m sinking lower in to depression,I’ve tried every antidepressant possible,and I’ve ended up up with a months supply of about 10 different antidepressants.
it’s like I’ve suddenly woke up and thought,where has my life gone
I’ve not worked because of them for over 20 years ..
I can’t see a way out ,..well I can but ….
im pathetically great full if a friend invites me for a coffee ,I constantly check my ph9ne Incase I’ve received a text from someone, just great full from any crumbs from their life they throw me ..even then I’ve nothing to talk about ,because the last 20 years has been all about my dc education and their needs .
i don’t have any any interests or opinions,I’m an empty shell of a person with nothing left to give .
i know lots of people with autism and with children with autism,but they are all functioning in society,kids go to special schools / college ,parents have a life .
i think .somehow .we fell through the cracks