Ffs. He looked like he was going to settle in his cot...then started to thrash around and grunt. Tried the dummy, he rejected it. He's had his nappy changed. Big feed. So why won't he sleep??
What makes it more frustrating is that he was doing so well with sleeping and sleeping in his cot. Feels like I was lulled into a false sense of security and now I'm being punished for that. Irrational but I am so. Fucking. Tired. I don't know what to do and how to get him to sleep, and am feeling ill with lack of sleep.
Also fell out with DH tonight again He was stressed because he said he'd come back from work and had no time to himself. Now bear in mind that 1. This is nothing new for us both - pre mat leave I'd get in the door at 6 and wouldn't stop till DD bedtime and then only had a short time before bed. 2. My mum is staying so she's been making the dinner, doing most bathtimes and helping with both DC so that's a burden off and 3. All he had to do when he got in was sit with DD (happily watching Paw Patrol) and DS (who was fast asleep) while I ran around doing chores.
We then had a saga about losing the receipt for DD's new shoes, which don't fit. DH had gone to the shop with her and supervised the fitting of them (Clarks so they are usually pretty good) and had paid for them. So why is the receipt somehow my responsibility?? Normally I'd have been more on the ball and got it off him to save, but DS was 2 weeks old and I wasn't really functioning too well.
So.upshot is the argument where he complains about the no time to himself thing as apparently I have all day to do nothing. Which pissed me off because the past few days have been spent on chores and Christmas shopping/prep in between feeding sessions. Yes I've rested for a few hours but that's because I'm not bloody sleeping at night so I need to try and take it easy at least some of the day so I can function without killing myself or DS!!
Argh! Sorry for the long rant but I'm feeling close to breaking here...