Hi sost. So glad your treatment is over and I hope not-pup-any-more is taking care of you.
I'm sorry you feel down about some of our dcs summers. I completely know how you feel as until 3 years ago I couldn't really give dd much in the way of extra curricular activities or holidays. I've been a single parent since pregnancy and chose to work part time to spend more time with her so we had to make our own fun and holidays were mostly a tent in Wales in the rain
. We had fun though.
My mum had a large inheritance a few years ago and chose to split it between me and my brother which meant I could pay off my mortgage and finally do the travelling I didn't do because I got pregnant.
I'm so grateful to my mum for giving us this opportunity while dd is still willing to come with me and this holiday has felt a bit like a last chance to spend time with her before she wants to start holidaying with friends (although she told me she'll keep coming for as long as I keep paying!)
But I do know what it's like to feel like you can't give dc opportunities others are having. Dd went to our local requires improvement rubbish comp because I couldn't pay the travel pass to to the better school and I talked her out of food tech GCSE for financial reasons.
Of course now I'm worrying that she's getting spoiled and forgetting the value of money so I will never be happy!