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Back to work for me today. I really wanted to go back feeling rested and organised but I’m still a tired, anxious mess.

How are we expected to focus on work anyway?

@ProvisionallyAnxious

I have similar anxieties *@Dollybagwash*... how far does the vaccination schedule have to get before they say "ok, let's get back to normal"? Do we have to wait for the whole population to be vaccinated? In which case it'll be what, 2022/2023 at this rate... I still don't see them gesturing towards any sort of end for all this.

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I'd feel so much better if she at least gave and indication of when restrictions might ease - at least BJ did that last night. It's the total lack of any sort of timescale for even a hint of normality that I'm struggling with. And May is soooooo far away.

Struggling to keep up quickly translates to telling yourself you're stupid when others seem to make the leap. There must be a plan for children with skill lags to recover.

As time went on the last time the teachers got better (learning curve for them on G classroom) but they stuck to same formula, 3 tasks, maths, literacy everyday and something else - I thought I was doing well getting him to do the maths and literacy.
Hoping this time I can engage the youngest in doing something other than distracting him with telly.

My fear is we have been told in the picking of the vaccine goals - mid February for England and may for Scotland before we see serious freedoms.

Let's hope at least by feb we get schools and nurseries open even if few others essential freedoms come back.

I hope we get more clarity on this the next few weeks, all govts should have a route map back to normality that can be shared.

Good shout with the route map anon. I know they had one before, but we have a vaccine now and if this has changed the timeline that should be shared with the public!

Honestly part of me wonders if we’ll ever go back to normal 😭

I'd already worked the timeline out to be what Boris said - Scotland won't be much different really.
The only this she's doing different is putting the teachers on higher priority. But that doesn't really do much to help the NHS or stop kids spreading the spready version so really is January to get the vulnerable vaccinated, 3 weeks beyond that for the vaccine to take affect and lag beyond that for pressure to drop on NHS. Therefore after half term before we can risk kids spreading it.

@kurtrussellsbeard

Is it in person *@Groovee* or online?

We're on teams. The October one had me logged in on ds's college teams causing much hilarity that I was Master G instead of Mrs G! 🤦🏻‍♀️ I've checked I'm on my own one.

My MiL (87) has still not had a letter about her vaccine. Even a letter with an appointment in mid January would help her. I know even older people in other parts of Scotland - no information. I know of Drs being vaccinated in Ninewells, but also I know there is one care home locally which has the vaccine, another which hasn't- both similar places.

I just think clear information helps. MiL would be so happy with a date in her calendar.

I’m really struggling this morning, can’t stop crying. Then I’m feeling guilty for this as I’m not juggling work or kids and don’t have money worries as still getting paid so I should just be getting in with it.

I can’t do this anymore, it’s never ending. I have no fight left in me. The loneliness is killing me

What is the point in lockdown? It didn’t work last time as we are right back where we were in March and quite frankly life has been shit for 9 months with restrictions with no end in sight.

I can’t see her stopping track and trace or masks until 2022 if we’re lucky.

@Cismyfatarse absolutely. I'm very anxious now to know the vaccine schedule and I'm really keen on an explanation as to why it's going to take so long.

@runningpink I'm not one for looking on the bright side, but looking at what scot gov is saying, NS has committed in my mind to serious amounts of freedom back by May implicitly. I'd rather it was mid February but the vaccines are rolling out and we're on the path to normality.

I hope you feel better

Runningpink, would you not think again about forming a bubble with someone?

The loneliness must be awful, sending big hugs, we are on the last stretch. Summer will naturally bring the virus rates down, the vaccine will do its thing, Easter bunny and another sun will rise!

It's a trivial aspect of it all but I'm so disheartened by the max 2 individuals from 2 households (plus kids). My DH and I got so much from socialising outdoors at the weekend with one other family, and now we can't do that. But he can meet one half of the couple in our garden and I can meet the other half in theirs which has exactly the same impact!

I'm not sure the government realises what narrow lifelines many people's mental and emotional health has been resting on. Agreed that we desperately need a route map.

I'm not sure the government realises what narrow lifelines many people's mental and emotional health has been resting on. Agreed that we desperately need a route map.

Agreed.

@runningpink

I’m really struggling this morning, can’t stop crying. Then I’m feeling guilty for this as I’m not juggling work or kids and don’t have money worries as still getting paid so I should just be getting in with it.

I can’t do this anymore, it’s never ending. I have no fight left in me. The loneliness is killing me

What is the point in lockdown? It didn’t work last time as we are right back where we were in March and quite frankly life has been shit for 9 months with restrictions with no end in sight.

I can’t see her stopping track and trace or masks until 2022 if we’re lucky.

Don't be so hard on yourself runningpink. It's difficult for everyone - regardless of whether you have kids or money worries. I struggle with it too but without lockdown people would die in ambulances waiting to access hospitals. That's the only justification that stops me from saying "fuck this".

We do need a proper route map out though - based on current knowledge and assuming everything goes to plan. EG When over 70's vaccinated we'll move to L3, with over 60's to L2 etc. All assuming hospital numbers allow it. And we need to move to hospital numbers not cases being the key stat - as a PP said case numbers are becoming a bit meaningless if those who are most likely to get really ill/die are vaccinated.

People need hope and goals and at the moment all we have is vague dates about vaccine goals.

The 2 individuals from 2 households is verging on cruel and un-policeable. Being able to meet GParents in a park has been an important one for MH.

I think it's one many will ignore or you'll push people back underground meeting in remote places.

@anon444877 has she indicated what type of stuff she will allow for freedom?
I need no masks, no track and trace for it to make any sort of difference. I really can’t see her stopping those things.

@Bikingbear
Only one friend has offered but she is in a different area so not really practical. And she and her partner are both still busy out working and settling into a new home so i would feel like I was intruding.

I’ll be fine in a few days just need time to get my head round stuff again I guess

Don't feel guilty @runningpink we've all got our own reasons for being upset and they are all valid. I cried yesterday because I dropped a glass of milk on the floor. Our resilience is just so low after all this time.

My gran is 98 and hasn't heard a word. My poor dad is stressed to the max trying to keep her safe so it would make a massive difference to all of us if we knew she was safe (safer).

I'm still rather concerned about the vaccine schedule. My parents were told by their GP it would likely be around March. They are over 75 (mum 80 in April) both with diabetes and various other health conditions, so not top of the list but I would have thought pretty close. This was pre Oxford approval, admittedly, but I would have hoped they would have been nearer to February, assuming vaccine roll out is top priority. If that is the speed they are going at, May seems a push to get all over 50s and cev people done.

@runningpink

I’m really struggling this morning, can’t stop crying. Then I’m feeling guilty for this as I’m not juggling work or kids and don’t have money worries as still getting paid so I should just be getting in with it.

I can’t do this anymore, it’s never ending. I have no fight left in me. The loneliness is killing me

What is the point in lockdown? It didn’t work last time as we are right back where we were in March and quite frankly life has been shit for 9 months with restrictions with no end in sight.

I can’t see her stopping track and trace or masks until 2022 if we’re lucky.

I'm so sorry running. It is shit. It doesn't matter if "others have it worse". It is still shit and you can still feel down or angry or hopeless or anything.

Thinking about the vaccine schedule, our post is completely knackered at the moment. We are still getting Christmas cards I know we're posted around 10th December. All the vaccine letters are coming out by post so it's possible they are held up in this mess, but also knowing NHS admin they may just be taking forever.

The 2 individuals from 2 households is verging on cruel and un-policeable

This one is bugging me too. My best pal has 2 kids same ages as mine. So the adults and the 8yr olds can sit together, the 13 Yr olds will have to sit together separately.

Whoever is talking on Radio Scotland right now has just said the point of the rules is to make it difficult and uncomfortable to meet up so that we are less likely to do it. They're achieving that for our family for sure.

@TeenTraumaTrials

Think I’m really struggling with the people breaking the rules have caused us to be back where we are alongside stupid government decisions. (Eat out scheme, travel abroad, no proper policing of quarantine etc)
So why should I keep bothering. We’re all being punished for a small minority of peoples behaviour.