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Cismyfatarse · 2021-01-02T23:12:29+00:00

As requested. Happy to help with home es queries about English up to AH level.

WaxOnFeckOff · 03/01/2021 21:38

To be honest, when i think back to the chaos of the primary school years, i actually think a period of lockdown would have been easier on me. Both DH and I working full time. me being late in every day as breakfast club didn't open early enough, having to make up the time in the evenings as well as running the house, taking boys to at least one activity a night, all of which generated extra laundry, weekends trying to catch up and get the shopping in and visit my DM 40 miles away. The stress if one of the DC wasn't feeling great, or my DM being in hospital or trying to negotiate to wah if the weather was bad/schools were closed etc.

Now, working at home so no rush in the morning even if school was in, no hundreds of clubs etc in my head it feels as if that would be better, though I'm that having to deal with homeschooling, lack of activities causing too much energy in DC etc would wear thin after a few days.

WaxOnFeckOff · 03/01/2021 21:43

@ssd

I'm the odd one out here too.

Probably why I mother all the young girls at work

I'm not much used to dealing with young women, we are a very boy heavy family. DS has now been with his girlfriend for over a year and been living with her since August but I still don't really know her very well which seems bizarre, but the opportunities to meet up have been very few. She seems lovely, I enjoyed picking a few bits up for her for Christmas, DS is very smitten and she seems the same, he thinks this is it and she's the one, which she very much might be. It just seems weird that i've only met her about 5 times.

ssd · 03/01/2021 21:46

Its different these days. Ds split up with his girlfriend of nearly 5 years just before lockdown, we had never met her parents

ssd · 03/01/2021 21:49

Absolutely lovely girl.
I still miss her..

WaxOnFeckOff · 03/01/2021 21:51

I'm doing better then, I've met her parents on "moving in to their uni flat" day. We had a drink in the pub before going off to separate meals and hotels. It was nice though sitting at our socially distanced tables for a wee while :) They seemed like lovely people.

WaxOnFeckOff · 03/01/2021 21:52

@ssd

Absolutely lovely girl. I still miss her..

Aww that's a shame, maybe you could swap DS for her instead? :)

Coquohvan · 03/01/2021 21:57

@icanboogieboogiewoogie some interesting stats about gyms

www.statista.com/statistics/308836/members-of-health-clubs-in-european-countries/
Quite at few million have memberships.
I didn’t imply gyms are the #1 solution for MH in my post.
What I did say it is good for my well-being and those who I know and laugh with.

Until they open again its zoom classes and walks with Miss Darcy, who really is the meaning of ‘a mucky pup’

ssd · 03/01/2021 21:57

Dont tempt me

ssd · 03/01/2021 21:58

Gorgeous dog!!

WaxOnFeckOff · 03/01/2021 22:04

Lovely dog :)

DH and DS1 are members of a gym. As well as the lockdown, it was also being refurbished. It opened for about a week but DH couldn't go as it shut again before the first session he was able to book happened. Then it re-opened and Dh got in one session as he works during the week, then it was shut again. DS1 hasn't been at all as he had a strain in his leg and hasn't even used the bits of equipment DH has in the garage. It's not good.

PapsofJura · 03/01/2021 22:08

I’m hoping that we are all feeling a little flat as the normal post Christmas blues and we will all bounce back to our normal level 4 happy selves!

But seriously, I do think some of this is just the January blues and we have all got through so much that this will pass and soon it will be spring and we may, just may be able to start planning for things.

WouldBeGood · 03/01/2021 22:12

Not January blues here. I’d usually have at least one trip planned, as well as just my day to day activities.

ssd · 03/01/2021 22:12

Oh god, I dream of having the January blues.

I moaned like fuck before covid, once it all gets better I'll be like Mary Poppins.

WouldBeGood · 03/01/2021 22:13

My life before Covid was the only time I’ve ever been happy. It took a huge amount of effort. Feels wasted now.

Perihelion · 03/01/2021 22:15

WaxOnFeckOff at points when I've been furloughed or very part time, I found myself unmotivated. Once I'd checked with myself that I wasn't depressed, I embraced doing feck all... boredom then got me doing stuff again.
Noticed at work this week that more people have come to the restaurant to pick up their food, rather than have it delivered, as they want something to do and get out the house

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Cismyfatarse · 03/01/2021 22:21

I was so looking forward to going back to school. I know the announcement has not been made but.....

We were all going to teach online from school with about 40 key worker / vulnerable pupils (secondary). It would have meant some socially distanced support from and for colleagues, plus ways of sharing workload would have been easier.

I just hope that, even if there is a delay, teachers can still physically go into the buildings. Teaching from home fills me with dread although I managed it perfectly well. It is really tough on the pupils and even the most motivated don't always engage as much as they should.

And it all feels so relentless. Always jam tomorrow.

Even champagne over the wall with neighbours on Hogmanay seems a lifetime ago.

I have 2 Uni aged kids. One is nearby and shares a flat so will go back regardless, even though online. The other is in England and has to live in college so can only go back if they say so. He plans to head down on Sunday but who bloody knows. And they need to be with other young people, desperately.

I am usually the Queen of bouncy optimism but it all feels a bit shit right now.

Tier Seven? All those not in full Hazmat suits get shot?

And the pretty awful teacher shit all over the place. I want to teach kids, in person,in my classroom. I am a bit vulnerable through age and asthma (though may have the vaccine as am in a trial) but I want to teach.

Anyway, sorry. Just needed to get it all out.

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PapsofJura · 03/01/2021 22:21

I know I sound like some happy freak but I’m trying to stay positive and I know it’s hard and I’m struggling too so I’m probably also trying to convince myself.

icanboogieboogiewoogie · 03/01/2021 22:25

@Cismyfatarse Do you think we'll not be in on Wednesday? I've been looking forward to getting back to my classroom and the children getting back to their key workers spaces at nursery.

WaxOnFeckOff · 03/01/2021 22:27

@Perihelion

WaxOnFeckOff at points when I've been furloughed or very part time, I found myself unmotivated. Once I'd checked with myself that I wasn't depressed, I embraced doing feck all... boredom then got me doing stuff again. Noticed at work this week that more people have come to the restaurant to pick up their food, rather than have it delivered, as they want something to do and get out the house

If we have a takeaway, i generally collect. it feels like I have more control over the process rather than sitting wondering when it might turn up!

I'm still working full time but have only worked one day since christmas eve and still have another day off but i've come to hate my job, I've found myself drifting off, struggling to concentrate, being demotivated and it's stressing me out as I know i should be further on in what I'm working on but that seems to be making me worse. I'm procrastinating and that's making me feel bad. To be fair I think i'm the same in terms of stuff in the house - there are some bigger jobs that need doing, i've technically had time since i've been off but i've really done nothing. I give myself a pep talk before I go to bed and have a plan of what I'm going to do but I always find some excuse or diversion and end up not achieving my plan. I am working and at my desk for my hours but i'll find stuff to do rather than what I should be doing. I need to pull my finger out and divert properly to that before it's noticed that it isn't where it should be.

I just really don't want to do this anymore :(

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Cismyfatarse · 03/01/2021 22:29

@PapsofJura Well there is some sort of big announcement about schools tomorrow according to Swinney on Twitter.

I can't see why we won't be in school accessing resources / support etc in terms of the virus but I am feeling a bit pessimistic just now.

But, I suppose, with us physically in the buildings it will be harder for people to tell us we are not working. I have never worked as hard as I did first time round.

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littlbrowndog · 03/01/2021 22:32

Me too wax

Lucky we had 2 weeks. Off

I never looked at my emails. Ffs

Going to do it so I don’t dread tomorrow

PapsofJura · 03/01/2021 22:40

I honestly don’t think the schools will open until at least after the February break and have no idea how we will cope with full time work and two primary school age children but still hoping I am wrong. It’s going to be a really tough shift.

ssd · 03/01/2021 22:43

The things is, feeling like shit just now is normal. Having no motivation is normal. Feeling sad,worried, fed up, despair, I think it's all normal. Cos we're not in our normal lives, we're all living in a nightmare were desperate to get past. And it feels fucking relentless.

We need to cut ourselves some slack.

LizzieMacQueen · 03/01/2021 22:44

@WouldBeGood

I want gyms, galleries, restaurants, shops, friends, holidays not an icy yomp round the bloody countryside, which is also now like Picca-bloody-dilly Circus

Absolutely this ^^

But I count myself lucky.

I'm kind of the opposite with work; had 2 weeks off but I've been so BORED that I have been doing a wee bit before going back on Tuesday (being part time and liking my job helps).

ssd · 03/01/2021 22:45

@ssd

The things is, feeling like shit just now is normal. Having no motivation is normal. Feeling sad,worried, fed up, despair, I think it's all normal. Cos we're not in our normal lives, we're all living in a nightmare were desperate to get past. And it feels fucking relentless.

We need to cut ourselves some slack.

BTW, I'm the first to criticize myself.