me and alcohol have ruined my family

[jesuswhatnext]

title says it all really - i really cocked up last night, dh walked out, i cant remember what i said to him

today i have actually been in touch with AA but i think its all too late, my dd hates me, as does my parents, yes im feeling sorry for myself right now but i also know i have to change and stop drinking but dont know how.

what can i do to put things right? help me!

evening moomin, glad to hear you had a good meeting!

god its sticky!!!, none of us can get comfy, the house feels like a furnace and there is not a hint of breeze here, this country is all or nothing! we are all becoming just a little grumpy actually!

I know what you mean - I don't actually want to go to bed as it's going to be sooooooooooo hot! Ugh!

Good evening everyone, you are all doing so well and hello to the newbies. Just thought I would let you know that I had to put my heating on at lunchtime because I was cold, you dont know how lucky you are. Hopefully it will be warmer tomorrow. We are heading for south of England next weekend so we might enjoy your weather then. Sleep well.

deste - what country are you in?

I've been following this thread from day one, I look it up most days to see how things are going with you JWN and think it's amazing :0. I'm not a regular but felt the need to say a big and amazing 'well done' (although that's such an understatement of what you've achieved over the last 6 weeks!) Alcoholism is such an awful illness that has such a devastating impact on all of those around you. Wishing you and your family a vey happy future

thanks jack - i still feel surprised when someone new pops along and says they have been reading this - i think after the initial awfulness had kind of subsided i had the idea of using the thread as a kind of diary - it has really grown into so much more.
i feel so grateful for the positive comments and it is wonderful to have so many of us now along for the ride as well - being an alcoholic can feel incredibly lonely, it is very hard to believe that there can be ANYONE else who feels that they are just as bigger fuck-up as yourself.
just had a thought, do we have to start a new thread when this one reaches a 1000 posts? - i vote our new thread is entitled along the lines of 'old bags anonymous'

I was wondering the same about 1000+ posts. Love the name too! Only thing... should it maybe have the word alcohol in the title to attract others with the same issues? Just a thought! I do love Old Bags Anon though!

Hmnnn, would you believe Scotland. My Dh had to come home at lunchtime for a jumper so I definately did not imagine it.

blimey deste, it sounded like you where in lapland or somewhere!

well, i must say goodnight - am exhausted!

looking forward to saturday

hope everyone has a peaceful nights sleep!

get to bed algee!!!

see you tommorrow xxxx

Goodnight to all - will still be about for a bit though if anyone wants to chat, if things are tough - or good! Too hot to sleep at the moment (and I am oop north!)

Morning!

Thought I would catch you all unawares by posting at stupid o'clock! wasindie, I am struggling to sleep in this heat so God only knows how your poor dp must be feeling!! And thanks for the smiley badge yesterday - it helped keep a smile on my face for the day.

I wonder how venus is getting with her retreat this weekend!

Funnily enough I don't have a great deal to say at this time in the morning - it's nice to wake up to day 17 though.

Here's to another great day for us all x

Morning computer fairies...hope you are all well, sorry I disappeared last night, I was planning to work until late, but it all got a bit much and I couldn't concentrate (mind kept wandering to a bottle shape) so I went to bed!!!! I didn't have a drink yesterday. It has been years, I really can't remember when that last happened. Still look the smae, but when dh arrived home at 2 this morning, I said hello to him without the tiniest hint of whiskey on my breath...

So, Saturday. Need to tell him today, soda and lime here I caome.

Have a fantastic weekend all of you, off to dig some bacon out of the freezer!

...still look the SAME

moomin, just looked at your post time! Hope you're getting some zzzzzs now...

Hello again! This is a more civilised time. Managed to get some sleep in the end.

I hope that everything goes well with your husband algee. You have already been brave with us so this is just the next step. As always we will be rooting for you! And congratulations you are now on day 2. No hangover, no shame, no regrets, fantastic isn't it?!

Hope to hear from JWN, curry, wasindie, nearly and anyone else who is about today!

...easy to be brave on the 'puter though, huh? though in saying that it did feel very brave when I did it!

Looking forward to catching up with you all, have a lovely day moomin!

morning everyone - ALGEE - you are fabulous!!!, well done!!!! i cannot express how pleased i am for you!!!!! GO GIRL!!!!!

wasindi - i am sorry to dissapoint you but dh is a really cool dude - he is 10 years younger than me, snappy dresser (read expensive!) but he has the potential to be a dashing and lovley gentleman - he is very much like my df, who is just that! i finally took my mums advice and married someone as nice as my dad btw - twins!!!! gordon bennett! you need to get sober my love, they are gonna run you ragged you will need ALL your wits about you when they arrive! , my sympathys to your dp, this heat is a killer!

anyway, must get on, have to go shopping with dn, i am about to face the hell that is claires accessories!

back later and remember

TODAY WE WILL NOT BE DRINKING!!!

lots of love and good luckxxxxx

Thanks JWN - and good luck in Claire's! Don't envy you one bit!

You've done one of the hardest things algee - you've admitted the problem to yourself. And then you have admitted it to us. I know we are faceless people on the internet but it's still a big step! Go for it!

My husband and I seem to turn into furnaces when we are under the duvet - temperature wise! So if it's even a little bit warm we struggle!

It'll be day 17 before you know it - just one day at a time. (Are you sick of hearing that yet anyone?!)

Re name for the new thread when we need it: how about something along the lines of 'Old Bags Anonymous - Life after booze' ? Just throwing some ideas about, I am not very good at that kind of thing. More factual/ logical than creative I'm afraid!

Although 'Life after booze' suggests that none of us will ever go there again with the drink and sounds a bit definite IYSWIM? Maybe a bit pushy??

Good evening to everyone. How's it going? Has everyone had a good day? Mine has been OK - sober so therefore good!

Am off to a meeting shortly so I will try to check in later to see how everyone's doing.

Thinking of you all!

Hey...can hardly believe it but I'm sober too. Can't honestly say I like it, but I have raed you lot since the start, so don't feel too downhearted, just hard done by. Told dh. All well. He said he'd stop too, I told him that when I'd mentioned my being worried in the past and he'd said that he'd stopp too it was just another excuse for me to carry on...how can I possibly deprive him... anyway I've poured him a beer and asked him tro carry on as normal to help me!

Hope all have had a lovely day