Grateful for some advice… my partner of 21 years not married that’s another story! We both have ADHD in different ways, at times it has been an emotional rollercoaster! I will do my best to explain this.. few months ago my partner came to me and said that he was struggling with the feeling that I didn’t trust him (I have trust issues past relationships that were toxic) have both been loyal the last 21 years he went on to telling me he read about non monogamous relationships and how he thought would help with our insecurities and by doing a one off (seeing a sex worker that would make but originally he said it would make him feel really trusted by me I was a bit stunned at the time and that was that until we gottogether and he showed me some sites he been looking at I’m feeling bit uncomfortable and said I was feeling uncomfortable and stopped looking.. fast forward a week on a saturday morning he said I think we should do this again stunned having all these feelings and could this help our relationship our insecurities I was feeling so overwhelmed and I consented.. I felt psychically sick to my stomach all day/ night. When he came back I felt numb but anger inside I now have huge regret the decision I made and ever since random times I cry or feel so angry and now feel like it’s broken the biggest mistake I’ve ever made i don’t know where to go with this I think it’s played a big part in my severe anxiety + D any gentle advice greatfully received