Rant Alert!

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Excuse me whilst I ramble, have spent recent few days bickering with dh and feel frustrated,annoyed,crap,stupid,pissed off,bewildered etc. And just need to let off steam before I combust. I won't go into the pettiness of our discussions, needless to say they have left me confused. I know deep down I am a strong intelligent woman, but on a daily basis feel worthless and just a "general dogsbody" who's good for nothing but skivvying! I know being a SAHM is valid and precious but start to doubt myself and think maybe if I got a job I'd feel better. I know I need a break but also know I wont get one without an argument,and I'm really getting tired of that. I'm beginning to dread all the work Xmas will be, when normally I love it. I know I probably have low self esteem, which also makes me mad at myself as I know my potential (pre-kids had good job), but I think I dont believe it anymore. Not expecting any answers, just need to off load. Changed name just in case.

just sneaked in a 10 minute lurk here on mumsnet - back to housework now - I kid you not!!

The first job interview (with recruitment agency) is leading to another one with potential employer on wednesday. The job profile matches my experience very closely - problem is, the only thing that is good about it is the money - it is not what I want to do and the hours will be long. I can't win - sad if I don't get it, sad if I do.
sorry to hijack thread!

oh tigermoth, not a nice position to be in is it? It would almost be better if you didn't get it and then the decision is made for you but good luck for Wednesday. Sort of.

Sobernow, have trawled back through my e-mails and re-tried the address Mumsnet gave me ages ago. Did you get it??

Also, dh made me breakfast this a.m. and put some washing on!! Steady on there boy, don't want to peak too early!!!

Tigermoth,good luck for Wed.Actually I have v similar dilemma.I know I "should" go for it career wise it would be a good move.Hours long though.Jobs at the moment are cosy,just been given extra hours,good money but unsociable hours."But" more time to spend during kids waking hours.Just waiting for someone else to make my mind up for me then I'll be sorted

batey - not clear from your post as to who was wearing the small thong...

Trust me, that dosn't bear thinking about!

10.30 it is then! Last time I saw the banana car it was at the back of the book shop, near the lift. Is that where you mean? Or shall we loiter in front of a certain overpriced supermarket?!

It sounds like a dodgey blind date!!

Great to meet you again today,finaly! Hope I didn't ramble on too much. Really wishing you and your dds a truly happy time! We deserve it don't we!!! Hope to see you in the New Year.

I do all the card writing/present buying/wrapping at our house and its not really a problem - in that DH takes on extra cleaning/ironing duties to compensate.

The thing that really iritates me is that he makes such a fuss about what to buy me and claims I am really difficult to buy for when I have all his family/my family to consider (we do DS together). It gets to me that he is so grudging about putting the effort in.

I wish I could have a damned good rant right now! But can't as it involves Mumsnet (not the good people who run it that is!). But am just seething here and must try my hardest to keep it in or I'll get thrown off!

Can't you calm down Rhubarb, and then tell us what the problem is?

Is it about GF? Because I've had to stop reading some of those breastfeeding threads as I'm so angry about water being intro'd to fully b/fed babies so early.

Rhubarb, this is a rant thread, so rant if you need to.
Or start a new one with a BIG warning on it and then no-one can complain!
(even me - am paranoid it was me now - sorry if it was )

I'm a bit paranoid too, I do sometimes find the writing things down rather than speaking them difficult and hope that I haven't offended or upset anyone, try to use tons of smiles etc but sometimes things don't read right or I can see how something could be taken the wrong way. Have a rant if you need to Rhubarb!

Rhubarb, hope you're ok. Echo everyone else, feel free to rant here.

Rhubarb, rant!
Rhubarb, rant!

(only if you want to

Oh dear, didn't mean to get people paranoid! Sorry to you all! No it's just that I've been posting some personal stuff on the Amnio thread for a while, stuff about my family and it's all close to my heart really. I THOUGHT I was being sensitive as I know many mums might be reading who had terminated their pregnancies. But my posts were then called offensive, I apologised, but my apology was not mentioned, however she came on again recently to say that she would talk about behavioural problems in adolescence but that they would come to my family and I might find that upsetting. I didn't reply but I just thought WHO THE HELL DOES SHE THINK SHE IS!!!!!! So I have been fuming quietly ever since whilst the others on that thread have pleaded with her not to go off in a strop! Now if you read that thread it will be obvious who I am talking about, but I don't want to victimise her. She has just pressed the wrong buttons with me. She has hounded me before in my previous nickname and I'm sorry to say this, but I really don't like her much.

However I feel that I shouldn't be saying all this. It could be interpreted as a personal attack, which I don't want it to be. I just hate it when people think they can take your personal details to use as a weapon against you. Call me paranoid, but as I've come across this person before, I know what she's playing at and I'm none too happy about it!

(((rhubarb))).I have stopped reading the amnio thread as I have family experience of a disability which could be terminated (brother with fragile X and autism) and have found some of it offensive. I have found your posts there to be open, honest, strong and thought provoking, and thankyou for being so open - it is not always easy especially if people don't want to hear what you are saying.
Take care, love Susan xx

I didnt mean you had been offensive, btw. Quite the opposite!