TW (suicide/OD) - how many people do you know who have died?

[Whichwhatnow]

Didn't really know where to put this. I'm just wondering if I and my social group are anomalies in the amount of peers who have either killed themselves, OD'd or died of addiction issues? I've averaged at least two a year since I was 16 (now 38) and have had two suicides of good friends in just the last week. In one case the partner of the guy who died by suicide lost her partner in exactly the same way two years ago, leaving her with two toddlers in her early twenties. This is fucked up isn't it? The other suicide was my sister's ex, and she already lost her fiance to addiction issues a few years ago when pregnant. I feel like I have more dead friends than alive. Is anyone's else's social circle like this or is mine particularly toxic??

What a desperately sad thread.

I've only known two, both young men who I knew through my own sons. It has devastated their parents and wider families.

Five. I think there could be a few more. (People who've died youngish but cause of death not disclosed)

I should add that I'm 58.
I am being practically forced into suicide as I suffer very severe depression and they (NHS) are denying me electro convulsive therapy. I've told my relatives that I have to die and that is because it's simply impossible to live with depression this severe. I'm amazed I'm not headbutting the wall.
This world is cruel and I actually believe they should legalise voluntary assisted euthanasia for those who don't want to be here. There are so many struggling with social isolation and mental illness, it's just evil. Life has become so Darwinist. I've got nothing to look forward to but more suffering because there is no way out of chronic isolation if you cannot fit into society for whatever reason. All I've got is a brutal , slow descent into insanity. It makes me fg furious that people are forced to live like this. It's a fg joke that they do not permit euthanasia for the terminally ill so obviously they'll never allow poor bastards like me a painless exit from this purgatory.