This is a fairly long scenario.
I don’t want to be thrown into the bus for it.
id like some honest opinions.
in February I started a programme at a small local gym.
never had more than a few people in these sessions.
sometimes just me.
the owner/PT and I clicked.
a few weeks went by and then bam, I realised we were now flirting.
He unfortunately for me, is married with kids.
I have a partner with kids.
it took me a good few more weeks to even accept that this guy was even into me. He was omg hot. In my eyes. I would never believe someone that like would like someone like me.
now I’ve been around - I know when someone is taking the piss or just wants a bit on a the side, I was once that person…
this was completely different.
It was intuitive.
id get butterflies to the point of distraction.
he treated me differently.
he confided in me.
we laughed.
we cried.
we just clicked.
one day he took it too far in front of people whom had been training with him for some years.
(just said a compliment to me).
he would turn up on his days off.
he accepted my Snapchat request.
we never messaged each other sexually or of the like.
just a couple of funny memes and he would watch my location and stories all the time - I’m quite ‘out there’.
the next day (after taking it too far) he started referring to me as ‘mate’.
it was odd. He was acting weirdly.
I felt it inside me. It hurt. Despite not actually starting anything between us.
maybe he had a realisation who knows….
so i decided to message and ask how we felt.
completely innocent, knowing both of our situations.
I even googled what a soul mate was as it felt that strong. I had never believed in that stuff until then.
I got a complete denial response back. Denies it all.
opened my heart, I was rejected and hurt and said some of the wrong things but that was end of April…
I was asked never to return to the gym. Which broke me. I was doing so well.
I understood it all at the time… but it never sounded like him on the messages.
I later discovered I was basically messaging his wife 😳
she controlled EVERYTHING.
his WhatsApp. iMessages. PERSONAL Fb. Insta. Tiktok. Emails. Literally his whole life. Everytime he took a pic it was uploaded to the cloud.
he is one trapped MF.
maybe he’s done it before? Who knows but I learnt the hard way.
another month passed and to this day I’ve never seen or contacted him.
I tried but the wife blocked me on everything - fair enough.
oddly he still follows my business pages so maybe he does still watch my stuff but I can’t tell.
I decided I had to confront the situation as this many months on it’s still in my heart hurting.
although I’ve accepted he may be my forever love I can never have it still needed to be resolved.
I contacted the wife.
i apologised.
I made out he was totally innocent and did nothing wrong and made myself appear the bad person. Explained I had some sort of breakdown or something.
she seems ok now.
I’ve asked to return to workout.
she’s painted it as though HE was angry and upset and never wanted me to return but I guess unless o see him, I’ll never know the real truth.
his business is round the corner from mine and I’ve thought about going there but everytime I walk past I feel physically sick.
I’m currently awaiting a response to my last msg as she’s currently seeing if I can return in September.
it appears hopeful but I’m scared.
I know that we can never be together but I just need closure and this is the only way I know how.
has anyone felt this way before. Drawn to someone. Knowing he’s the love of you life.
I could wake up next to him and be happy forever and ever. Despite his flaws.
it makes me sad that he may feel trapped but nothing I can do.