I have a crush. It’s ridiculous. He’s 22. I’m 36.
We met last year at a gym. It’s a spit and sawdust-type gym where people just rock up and train. We’d often be there at the same time. Around November, we started pairing. Well, he started training me really. He doesn’t work there, he’s not touting for business.
I didn’t fancy him at first. Then something happened a few months ago. I have no idea what happened. It's like a switch went on and now I’m like a bloody schoolgirl.
The training we do is very physical. We touch a lot. It gives me fanny gallops. We flirt a little bit. Nothing too heavy. Most of the men are quite flirty but its ‘banter’ (hate hate that word) rather than actually looking for more. Heaviest it got with Crush Man was last week – he was showing me how to move my hips. My bum was close to his groin. He said “Jesus, I better stop this” and walked off sort of puffing out his cheeks like he was flustered. My minge nearly fucking exploded.
22 and 36 is inappropriate. I don’t want to ruin our training relationship and friendship. I need to crush the crush. How?
I can’t really avoid the gym without good reason. I mean because we train together, I’d have to tell him that I’m not around for a while. And I can’t say “I’m going to be away for a month because I can’t cope with how badly I want to sit on your face”.
I don’t actually want to avoid the gym though. It’s not a regular gym, I can’t just go to another one. And I love it. I really do love the training. I love the gym. I love everyone there (some more than others obviously!!). I just need to crush this ridiculous thing. How?