Op, I don’t know if it helps but some family and friends of mine are Police. One night they had a conversation and said the worst job was domestic violence, that thr women always say “but I love him” and then the exact words they used were, by the end these women are “barely human” any more, we would barely recognise them as human beings.
They have been so beaten throughout their lives they are so pitiful,utterly utterly Pitiful, they sit there, bruised, battered, toothless, missing hair, parts of their bodies no longer working, and the same officers, deal with them, year after year and see them physically and mentally decline. See them mouth but I love him. And go back, to get another disability, another shame, their adult children won’t come near them, they leave as soon as they can. Those kids never look back
Don’t be that woman. Don’t be that woman that saddens, frustrates and is pitied by police, go have your life and meet someone good. Let your children be raised in an environment where violence, fear isn’t the norm, where they don’t look at their own mother with pity and disgust.
Go have a happy life. You and yours should never be near this animal again.