@FabulousMrFifty
@VanGoghsDog How do feel about your diagnosis ? does it make sense ?
who did you go and see ?
Well, the ASD was summer last year and ADD was this summer.
I had some therapy which I arranged and paid for myself, after my father dying April last year.
The therapist was a psychologist with expertise in ASD especially in women.
I didn't go to her knowing this nor expecting a diagnosis.
She just spotted it and then suggested some tests.
Then I saw her again for three sessions this year and she suggested the ADHD test too.
I come out very highly on all of them and significantly I score really high for masking.
It makes sense in a way. But I admit I think being diagnosed ASD is a bit of a trend. My issues have previously been put down to childhood abuse and CPTSD or abandonment syndrome/attachment disorder. But these days, some could be put down to peri menopause!
None of it matters, knowing makes no difference. Though it does explain why I'm always tired and why my house is always messy (incapable of executive function type jobs a lot of the time, which I know sounds, and is, ridiculous, and I wish I could change it!).
Having ASD and ADD is a contradiction. It means I like order and routine but am incapable of creating either. I get upset if my favourite morning cup isn't washed, but not to the extent of actually washing it in advance, for example.
Putting in some set routines has helped me a bit, though I notice they slip very quickly if I'm feeling down.
I do have some typical ASD traits, such as not liking different textures in food, having some sensory issues, especially around noise plus can't wear headphones. I have PDA (pathological demand avoidance) which means I hate being told what to even in a tiny way, makes me difficult to manage at work (though obviously I know to cover it up and behave properly at work). I don't like random touch, or being surprised. Clothes often irritate my skin which is very sensitive to touch. I really struggle with social situations and dwell on things for literally years when I have said something wrong, which is often as I forget social norms at times.
People think I'm really funny, but I often have no idea why. For example, I was visiting a friend at Sandy, and it had been raining a lot, so I said I hoped it wasn't muddy, but it probably wouldn't be, what with it being sandy (Sandy is sandy). She said she read that text to her whole family because I'm so funny. It wasn't meant to be funny, just factual.
But just as often a similar kind of comment offends someone and I have no idea why!
Can't fix it by knowing though, just forgive myself a bit.