Feeling sad

[SissyLongStockings]

Hi all.
Just needed a handhold really. Going through the stages of being heartbroken and on my own.
Always wake up this time of night missing him. Then cant get back to sleep.
I get that horrible wave of sadness and gut churnning knowing I will never see him again.
When will it end?

I was asleep but thank you for asking. I'm afraid I'm going to get the sack because I've had to stay off work

@knucklehead how do you mean? They cant just sack you.

Namechange you ok?

Sissy - I'm ok thank you. I feel a bit better now I've eaten.

Knucklehead - why would they sack you? Maybe it would be good to be honest with them and explain the situation? I'm sure they would understand, we've all been there.

I know what you mean though, I've been off sick, and I've used up nearly all my annual leave.

I'm going to send him a 'final' text tonight. This will probably be the 3rd final text I've sent.... he'll probably reply with the same old rubbish or just not reply at all. He refuses to give me closure. I'm just going to tell him how I feel and that's it. The longer I go without talking to him the better I feel. It's only when we are communicating that it hurts, because it's a constant reminder of what I can't have.

Hi ladies thinking of you all this evening. Even sitting on my front step, hearing the birds sing make me think of him, a longing to be with him and hear the birds sing, receive a message like I used to, know in some way I'm in his head. The silence is deafening and I dont feel any closer to forgetting him.

Oh god @Mermaidwaves I know exactly what you mean I loved listening to birds with him it was sort of our thing. And look at stars. Guess I'll just be doing that on my own then.

To all us heartbroken ladies on here and wherever u r in the world.
Lets hope its a better day tomorrow and one day closer to healing our wounded hearts.
We can push forward and work through it. Were a lot tougher than we think.
Stay strong ladies.

@sissylongstockings Yes! I wish I could give you all a massive hug, fuck covid 19

Fuck covid and Fuck all those shitty men that threw away the best thing they ever had. Im raising my middle finger to them all!!

You all need a healthy dose or r/femaledatingstrategy. YOU ARE THE PRIZE GO FIND SOMEONE NEW AND BETTER

Yep a big hug to you ladies here I find all your posts comforting as I dont feel so alone. @Knucklehead101 its little things that make you think of them isnt it?

I hope you all have a peaceful night and some respite from the hurt tonight.

Thank you Mermaid you to night night ladies

Argh god hate this. Im exhausted but cant sleep thanks to him. Come downstairs watching telly munching my way through a multibag of walkers cheese and onion.

Hope we all sleep well.

Hope you get to sleep Sissy. It's quite humid anyway so I don't think I'll sleep. He replied to my message but I haven't opened it.

Still awake. Still thinking of him.

I must be nuts. I feel like im going nuts

Namechange did you read his message?

Me too Sissy. Can't sleep. I read his message and it was just some crap... he was just being jokey and didn't acknowledge what I said at all. He just wants me to stick around so that he has me as an option for sexting.. it's pathetic really. And yet I still have hope that it could be more.
It's like I'm obsessed with him, in a way.. as sad as that sounds.

Sissy you are not going nuts and you will get past this. I hope you manage to get to sleep soon. x

No sleep here either x

How are all you ladies doing? Is everyone sleeping okay? I downloaded a meditation app to listen to before bed and it's making me calmer

I was doing really well but it's my birthday today, I was so excited for a birthday with a boyfriend; the first in 9 years since the ex and I just feel really sad. It's the idea he's talking / sh*gging women on tinder and having the time of his life and I just feel miserable

How do people detach from emotion so easily? It's crazy

Happy Birthday @Doingitaloneandproud !!

Feeling anxious and nauseous today ladies, a horrible panicky feeling inside. I'm checking his facebook all the time to see what he's up to, seeing if there's evidence of this new girl or if he's working. I'm tearful and my kids keep asking why, I'm having to lie and say its my hormones. I wish I had never met him! Hope you're all doing ok folks