Has my boyfriend unblocked his ex?

[hastala]

Ok I might sound crazy but here goes.
In the search bar on Facebook when I typed my boyfriends name plus his ex's name nothing came up.
Now when I put his name and his ex's name all posts from years ago show up that she wrote on his wall.
Does this mean he's unblocked her?

Op, how long have you been in a relationship with him.

How old is he? Does he see you as being in relationship with him? It reads like he thinks of you as someone he's seeing rather than his girlfriend.

If you know he'd go back to his ex given the chance then do yourself a favour and get rid. Relationships are meant to make you happy and this one isn't.

Dude.

Chill. You're the one that's causing angst.

Unless you've good reason to suspect something, why search.

Has he compared you to her? Said you're not good enough? Or is it just your perception?

Unless you meet someone who is a virgin with no prior relationships, there will always be a history. Good or bad.

You need to find a way to process it rationally. For your own sake.

I honestly feel like I'm stuck in this never ending circle of him picking me up throwing me down
I can't let go because I'm crazy for him and its driving me mad

Why are you allowing him to pick you up and throw you when you want? He's one of so so many men out there. He's not that great. In fact he sounds crap. So why obsess over him?

I have feelings for him and I can't shake them.
It's driving me crazy

OP, you're obviously going to do whatever you want. Why are you asking for help? You're not going to listen.

Call that intermittent reinforcement not feelings OP

I honestly feel like I'm stuck in this never ending circle of him picking me up throwing me down
I can't let go because I'm crazy for him and its driving me mad
That is crazy! You know it's not right but you're allowing it. Step away from him & don't read into any signs that he might care. You're gaining nothing but losing everything.

You need to get yourself right before you enter into a relationship. This isn't healthy and tbh if you were my partner I'd think you were batshit crazy

I know what it's like to want love and to want someone who doesn't want you back. It hurts and it is hard. You can't sit analyzing everything he does thinking that's the part where he cares, or this, or that and that it all leads to where you want it to go. I mean this with so much respect OP. Don't settle for someone who picks you up and throws you down because not only is that not love, it's not what your beautiful self deserves.

Hugs.

This is your anxiety in action. Take care of yourself and work on whether this relationship values you and is helpful for you