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The next stage of my life WILL be better...

998 replies

Dumbledior · 15/07/2007 19:49

New thread for me to moan...

OP posts:
Baffy · 02/10/2007 14:52

Great news
Hopefully that should give you some incentive to keep going with it...

How are you feeling in general?

Baffy · 02/10/2007 14:52

Great news about ww by the way - not about ds being sick, hope he gets better quickly

DastardlyDior · 02/10/2007 16:50

He had a two hour nap

The weight loss is making me feel great. I am still sticking to the 'Core' plan (where you don't count points) but may switch back to Points in a couple of weeks as I get a bit lax with my portion control otherwise! I am 'enjoying' it though - if you can enjoy a diet

H said goodbye to me today and did not try to give me a kiss - he was pleasant and so was I. I don't see the point in kissing me if he can't cuddle me because he has lost respect.

DastardlyDior · 03/10/2007 12:30

H did not try to kiss me goodbye this morning. I am waiting for the solicitor to call me back to arrange an appointment.

Tanee58 · 03/10/2007 17:27

Good luck Dior, sorry haven't time to post more - have snatched looks at MN during work and feel guilty.

Seeing a solicitor is a good move. You need to know where you stand, in order to feel strong enough to take that stand.

ginnedupmummy · 03/10/2007 22:04

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DastardlyDior · 04/10/2007 09:27

Yes, I'm fine thanks. Nothing to tell really. No attempt at a kiss again today, but we are being friendly and watched a couple of tv programmes together last night. I am withdrawing. I have come to the conclusion (finally!) that, although we get on as friends would, there is nothing more.

He sees that there is, but only when I am attractive in his eyes. That is not good enough for me. I would rather never have a relationship again than have the desert of my marriage.

Mind you, I DO want to have another relationship .

Tanee58 · 04/10/2007 13:50

Dior, you will .

DastardlyDior · 04/10/2007 14:05

God, I really hope so...

Tanee58 · 04/10/2007 14:09

Any news from the solicitor?

I think you do know what you want, and what you want to do. It's not your weight, it's his whole attitude to you that's wrong. As you yourself say, you're bubby with others, and depressed with him. What does that say? He's toxic to you. He's got his good points, of course, but not in relation to how he makes you feel. You shouldn't be rationed for affection, passion, sex, whatever, you should be able to give and receive them in equal measure. He obviously has a very low sex drive, and that may suit some skinny, chocolate hating woman out there who will be the love of his life - so you owe it to her to set him free !!!

  • well, that's one way to look at it, anyway.

And I agree with the others - you'll probably find the weight drops off once you're free and able to become yourself.

My exh had a low sex drive - we only did it once a week when we first met (never on weekdays, because we had to get up for work the next day, wtf! - then it became once a month, and after dd, never again - and in the end it drove me into an affair. I should really have tried to deal with it without the affair, but I'm not perfect and I still carried a torch for dp, so it was sadly easy to slide into things with him. Like you, I didn't marry with that intention, I deplored extra marital affairs. But since exh and I split, I'm SO much happier, and feel like I'm truly myself, inhabiting my own skin, for the first time in my life. The only pity is that I was 45 before that happened. It WAS scary, sorting out the bills and things alone, but I feel I've grown up a lot in the last 5 years.

It's never too late, and you're probably not even half way through your life. Seize the day!!

Tanee58 · 04/10/2007 14:13

You can tell, I'm on an up 'cos the sun's shining, I went to see 'Atonement' last night and came home feeling full of love for dp and sentiments about not wasting precious time - seduced him and we STILL managed to get up for work this morning . (don't really know what exh's problem was...)

DastardlyDior · 04/10/2007 14:18

lol Tanee!

I am reading Atonement at the moment. I love the way it is written. I would love to see the film, but do you recommend seeing it before or after finishing the book?

Yes, the 'setting him free' argument is the one I will be taking. He needs to be with a woman who never overeats and loves housework. Also, one who does not want children as he does not want any more. Oh yes, they must cook meals from scratch every day (pasta is not allowed more than once a week)...

Me - I'm looking for a cuddly, broad/tall man who likes sex. He has to have a nice smile and like chocolate/sweets.

fawkeoff · 04/10/2007 17:16

so you are now actually seeing your life without him in it...i know that you cant put a time on these things but to you think you will still be together for xmas.....or are you making sure that you are.

Tanee58 · 04/10/2007 17:55

Dior, I'll keep a look out for that cuddly man for you . I think it's a huge step forward that you're now thinking that way. I'm sure he's out there.

I haven't read Atonement yet. A friend gave it to me some years ago, but I'd struggled with Enduring Love and didn't like it, so didn't read Atonement. It's somewhere in the attic along with most of my books, which is very frustrating as both dd and I would like to try - and dd's not a big reader, so I like to encourage her if she shows an interest.

I usually prefer to see dramatisations before reading the book - otherwise I get very annoyed by the obvious changes made for filmic purposes (I've hated almost every dramatisation of Jane Eyre except the most recent one and the one back in the 1970s with Michael Jayston). But as you've started the book, maybe you should finish it or seeing the film will spoil the ending for you. Obviously, I can't tell how close to the book it is.

Having said that, the filming is GORGEOUS, every frame beautifully composed and lit, the dialogue spot on for that period, lovely clipped 'Noel Coward' accents, great music and a real sense of period. Keira Knightley actually acts rather well and I think I'm in love with James MacAvoy - young enough to be my son, no matter. I could hate Keira's skinny figure, but I don't actually as she has no bust at all, and I think most men prefer something up top - at least, dp says my 34 DDs are my best bit ! But she wears a deep green silk gown to die for.

So finish the book asap and see the film. It'll be good on DVD, but the big screen does it full justice.

And take a handkerchief ...

Tanee58 · 04/10/2007 17:58

Actually, I rather wonder if the perfect woman for your H exists! However, that doesn't excuse you giving him the chance to find her . So set him FREE!!!!

Tanee58 · 04/10/2007 17:58

ok, going home now to nurse my sore throat. Big g&t might help

Dior · 04/10/2007 18:24

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ginnedupumpkin · 04/10/2007 18:31

Distancing yourself is the way to go Dior. It will make you feel better and more calm in yourself.
Don't put yourself under pressure to do anything or make any decisions. Let nature take its course and when you're ready, you'll know what to do.

Dior · 04/10/2007 18:35

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Paddlechick666 · 04/10/2007 20:08

dior, in a very weird way your description of what you're looking for could be my H!!

he's going cheap if you're interested?

fawkeoff · 04/10/2007 20:21

i think you are doing fantasic dior....and i am sorry if i haven't told you this before, but you are facing your life and problems in the face and IMO that has to be as hard as trying to break free from this relationship.I think that when the time is right for you then you will know,you are the only one that will know when it is right to take the next step

Paddlechick666 · 04/10/2007 20:29

fawkeoff speaks wise words.....

ps: found a bra but haven't tried it yet so finger's x'd.

was going to try tonight but dd asleep, houseguest gone and wine, readymeal curry, chocolate and home and away are on my agenda for this eve!

Dior · 05/10/2007 09:22

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Paddlechick666 · 05/10/2007 09:28

god dior, what a mean thing to say.

no excuse for his nasty-ness but you know, you left yourself wide open for him to have a dig.

put yourself first, do everything in your own time and resist the habit/temptation to give him an opportunity to have a pop at you.

in fact, wherever possible big yourself up and rub his nose in it.

eg: "because X clearly enjoys my company and values my friendship."

you could finish it off with "see you later, have a nice evening you sad git!" altho that could be a little inflamtory!

Dior · 05/10/2007 09:33

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