Well I for one feel excited for you. The more you post and the more you listen to people have been in your situation you sound stronger and ready to do this.
I'm willing you to go for it. The shit bit afterwards is inevitable but it always will be so you're getting it out of the way because it needs to be done. And it will be done. By you!!
I've said before on here but I left an incredibly toxic relationship after years of self loathing, attempts to make it work by losing sight of who I actually am etc etc
About a week after crying my EYES out, I woke up one morning and honestly burst out laughing I was that happy. I had a bed, my own self respect, never before seen feeling of empowerment. I was FREEEEE! Grabbed my favourite book, lit a lovely candle and chilled the fuck out. It. Was. HEAVEN.
I'll never forget that laughing fit and it helps me with tough decisions now years and years later. I try to do one thing that makes me burst out laughing with elation every week!
You know I mentioned the feeling of joy you get as a book lover when reading a book you love and finding out there's going to be a sequel?
That's what this thread is like for me - I can't wait to hear you being proud of yourself in the next chapter! 