Hi all
Met a lovely guy on online dating. Both in early-mid 30's. We were dating for around four months. Everything was going well, so I thought. Regular dates, regular contact, met some of each others friends, I very briefly met his mum, etc.
We were due to see each other this weekend and I was going to bring up the "where are we going" conversation as it was all very undefined and it was driving me a bit mental.
On Wednesday, we were messaging and he himself was talking about online dating apps and I couldn't resist and initiated the conversation myself. His response really shocked me. He said he wasn't ready for a relationship (he told me on date one that's what he was looking for, so this was never a doubt in my mind?) as he is too busy at work/works too long hours. He said he knew I was wanting to move towards a relationship, so I thought it was unfair that I had had to bring up the conversation when he said he knew it wasn't feeling it a "While ago".
I feel like I've been strung along for the majority of the time. I really liked him. To make things harder, he said he is still "interested" and asked me to consider a more casual arrangement for now. When I said I would have to think about whether that's best for me or not (Stupid), he said that's fine, and for me to take my time, but then dropped in that he was going to be out of town for a large portion of December on a trip so he wouldn't be able to see me until the New Year?!
I just felt so hurt by how he was treating me that I did not reply, removed and blocked him on every platform; whatsapp, Facebook, Insta, etc.
I did this based on previous experience of the torture of waiting around for someone to make contact, and I knew the temptation to accept his arrangement and remain in contact would be too much for me.
BUT, not that I should care what he thinks, I'm now worried that blocking him was too dramatic and that he thinks I am crazy. I also left a lot unsaid (on purpose, as I felt he wouldn't really care anyway) that I am itching to say. I thought that blocking him would be a cleaner break and make things easier, but rather than sitting around thinking "will he contact me" had I not blocked him, as we only live down the road from each other (literally 2 min walk) I'm now just thinking "will he come round" instead. In some ways he was nice in his last messages, saying how much he thought of me and how he was devastated to not "feel ready" and now I'm doubting myself and wondering if blocking without replying was too harsh? Do I unblock and apologise for doing so and wish him the best like a 'good sport'? Can someone help a girl out here?