I am married to a man who is in all respects a good and descent guy. We have two DS and he provides for us financially (I have a low paid job which fits around the kids school).
I just feel very unsettled at the moment and have done on and off for the last couple of years, although have been trying to bury these feelings!
We get on well but he is happy staying in all weekend whereas I would like to go out and make new experiences and socialise, both with the kids and us as a couple. A typical weekend would be a Friday night in (with him commenting on how perfect it is being home all together ), followed by a Saturday of him on the sofa with the boys and maybe a trip to the park. Same thing Saturday night and then Sunday chores and errands mainly done by me while he is with DS.
I do suggest going out and he will agree but in a way that I know he would be happier at home which makes me feel disappointed in his lack of enthusiasm.
Sexually, I used to still fancy him however, he tends to knock me back a lot if i instigate sexual contact (even a slightly passionate kiss!) If it was down to him I think we would have sex about once a month which for me isn't enough. I think this has had a knock on affect on how I feel towards him in terms of fancying him.
I know I am lucky to have a loyal DH and a stable relationship but am craving that intimacy and fun and sexual spark! I think that he is getting older before his time and that's just not me... lots of people would tell me that the sexual side of things fades and the friendship is what makes a relationship last but I feel like I want to feel alive!
I hope I don't sound like a teenager, hopefully I don't have my head in the clouds here- just wondered if anyone else feels the same?