Can't, you are punishing yourself by continuing to meet with, think of, or engage with these people! They are bullies and they are thoroughly enjoying manipulating you and making a fool of you! I am so sorry that you were raped, I am horrified that your friends goaded your rapist and their communication with you since you were raped is beyond cruel! These people are evil, they are every bit as responsible for your rape as your rapist was! They are repeatedly and deliberately harming you, you need to protect yourself! Block every single one of them! No more nights out, no more messages! In fact until you have received counseling for your rape I would advise not to go out drinking/ dancing with anyone. Please be careful too as you will draw out more vipers at uni, think of them as emotional vampires who sense your vulnerabilities! It does sound like you have made some good friends, I would concentrate on building on these friendships!
I have been in very similar situations when I was younger ( I am thankful that I escaped them unscathed (apart from the distress at the time), I was almost raped on more than one occasion and my 'friends' (vipers) were jointly responsible! I had one friend spike my drink with large amounts of vodka with the intention of sending me home with two disgusting men in their late forties! I started to feel unwell and managed to escape unharmed. I too was a virgin and they (my friends) ktook it as a challenge to take that away from me. Looking back I can see how incredibly vulnerable I was! I too went to uni studying to become a professional. I was always told by tutors (and professionals on placement) how mature I was and like yourself I was bubbly, friendly and reasonably outgoing. But if I am honest, ómy self esteem was incredibly low.
Academically I excelled, I had top marks for all of my placements and assignments. Yet despite this I was socially and emotionally immature and vulnerable. For me that was the result of undiagnosed autism (which presents differently in girls, girls are much better at mimicking their peers and appearing 'normal'). Unfortunately my so called friends sensed that vulnerability and naivety, and put me in dangerous situations for their own enjoyment. Just as your friends have! I am in no way saying that you are on the autistic spectrum (although you may well be), but you are vulnerable and naive! You trust people to be good human beings, when unfortunately there are many people out there that would (and have) do you harm. This is not a bad thing but it is something you will need to be aware of to protect yourself from in the future. Looking back there were social cues that I missed, cues showing their true intentions. 9
Counseling is crucial for you to work through your trauma, both surrounding your rape and the cruelly way these so called friends have treated you. You are in a fortunate position of having the opportunity of a fresh start. Put these people to the back of your mind and focus on your studies and yourself. There are good people out there, you don't need to stay in a group of toxic vipers! You are intelligent, lovely, friendly and you have a promising future ahead of you! Please take heed and leave these vipers in the past where they belong! You wouldn't stay in contact with your rapist, these girls are every bit as bad and they take sadistic pleasure in hurting you! Please protect yourself!