I know :( I just went and looked :( . Oh well. Stay here, if we help you more/better for your circumstances.
We all have different ways of doing this hard sober stuff. Here, we try to be supportive of lapses but also ask people not to post a lot of detail about the actual drinking involved,, at the time. We welcome reflection and discussion (and laughter!) bout lapses, but prefer it to be when people are sober, the next day. If it helps, I find Babes to triggers to be on, or read, as well!