Im sat out in my garden necking strong sweet tea trying to get mt head round terrible news. My sister who was diagnosed with cancer 6 weeks ago and has undergone a brutal op, has gone into ICU as it's spread so aggressively they've stopped all cancer treatment. She's in hospital miles away so I'm driving up tomorrow. It's all happened so fast and is such a shock. I can't tell my children til Sunday as I don't want them to be alone with this news (they're at their dad's from tomorrow overnight) til im back but she has very little time now. They thought I was being weird asking them to draw her a picture or to write more in her card.
I guess I'm just wanting to.talk as I'm so in denial and numb, I'm at a loss of what you do or say, except to go up there and hold her hand.
I've rung round all the relatives for.my parents and i didnt feel any of the words I was saying, like someone is going to tell me it's all a misunderstanding. Some of my friends are arranging to meet me at a friend's house who.lives near the hospital to keep me company in the evening (am.staying over so i can see her sunday too) . I guess