Brave Babes are boinging into Spring..Join us here!

[dementedma]

We are a bus load of Babes all battling alcohol and trying to resist, reduce and get our lives back under control. Whatever you have to say, we will have heard it before and no-one will judge you. This is a warm, friendly,supportive place with tough love when needed ( slap round the face with a wet squid called Barrie). Join us here.

Oh please don't apologise dubh! Im hugely touched that you've asked to sponsor me. A couple of others asked about sponsorship too a while back...I've just had a look on the CALM website and if you donate as a one off its asks if it's in memory of anyone. I have been thinking about my brother on every run, and whilst I'm not making a huge deal of running 'for him' (which I know he would of hated) I sort of am. So maybe donations could be in his memory, and I will happily pm his name to anyone who would like to donate??

Same frock different seller ma, ooh is the blue dress a doer for your posh night oot?

Oh ma, I hate to tell ye but you are off and trotting now, ebay is a bit of an evening filler. I've lost hours on it.

I don't like the blue dress as much as the black one but it would do except it's. 14 which may be pushing it,unless I can lose a few pounds before end of May. It also has a cross over back which looks sexy on a slim model but may not work on back fat and hefty norks.....

Sorry that took so long to word I missed your last post . Did you speak to the GP about getting signed off dubh? Sounds like you really need it. If having a drink makes you feel better, it will be at best a very temporary fix which will leave you feeling worse (says the hypocrite!). Huge, huge hugs to you and so sorry your feeling so low xxx

ma they will be so enamoured of your splendiferous norks they'll nae fash aboot your (very, very slight cushioning under yon) cross back. Word.

I won't drink tonight, I promise. If truth be told I scared myself a bit earlier. The GP will sign me off if I request it, but he feels my self esteem would never recover if I gave in.

And I see where he's coming from, but oh bloody hell I'm dreading Monday again. The Terrorist has a damp spot on her shoulder, she's a good listener. Poor dog, she was so happy to see me and I was bubbling. Will get my walking boots out first thing and get some fresh air. Nobody will see me doon the river. I'll treat us both to a song.

Gaun yersel dubh

Elle I just want to say welcome, I'm new here too. But I want to share the difference since I started posting already this week...

I did three AF days.

Today, big big drinking lunchtime party with friends.. on the advice of a darling earlier pp I tried hard to think about what I was drinking, and drank one glass of wine to two of everyone else's for an hour or two. Then, had a lost couple of hours of chucking fizz down my throat.

But then, at the absolute point when I was finally on my own(ish), and would normally have probably drunk pretty another bottle of wine on my own, until I was pretty much passing out (and until the general pain of living stops), I didn't.

I recognised that I was already quite merry. And felt that more would just make me feel worse, not better.

I don't know how, really. And I don't want to sound bragging, because I'm the last person that could do that about the whole drink thing. But just thinking about it helped. And I'm now in bed with a cup of tea. And I know that I will feel much better for it tomorrow.

I just want to say that posting here helps, and the advice from so many is incredible. I know that I've a long way to go, but if I can help one of you by relating that making tiny changes in thought and doing really do make a difference, it's a much better day than it would have been previously.

Hugs and happy Easters to all x

Managed 2 days af and have now found myself holding Court with the wicked wine witch. Sitting on cushions on the floor (as the couch got picked up today) leaning against the boys matresses. I should go to sleep, but I'm still drinking. Keep having panic attacks and my OCD has got out of hand again... been cleaning the new house with bleach and a toothbrush. I can't clean the flat cause we're moving tomorrow and I'm so lost and down. Happy Friday I guess

Elle also wanted to say, ditto on depression, except anxiety, and ditto on anti-depressants, except anti-psychotics. Alcohol and children dancing alongside.

I do now truly believe that there is still hope to find a way through and out of this. And this thread may be the pathway to lead you there. Please stay.

Flowery it sounds like you are under so much pressure. This is just one night, in the middle of moving which would drive nearly anyone crazy. Hope it all goes well and you find some peace and calm space once you've moved, and good luck x

Thanks broken feel like a massive fuck up right now. Had 2 panic attacks today so I'm struggling

Flowerey moving home is incredibly stressful, don't beat yourself up. Can you get to bed now? You know what to do, water, paracetamol. Bash the witch.

Well done broken baby steps turn to big strides.

Dubh hugs to you x

Welcome Elle good move joining us lot!

Hi everyone else, will catch up tomorrow x

I can but I can't settle if that makes sense. Dd is having her first night out of our room cause the boys are with their granda. Ds1 has been awful and I keep thinking I've failed him. I've got water and pills though

Thanks lux I know you have your own crap you're dealing with just now

You haven't failed anyone. Can you get into bed and listen to the radio quitely? Maybe a phone in chat show or an easy listening station might be soothing.

I must get into my own bed now. Sweet dreams all the dryers, triers, strugglers and lurkers. Tomorrow is brand new, let's grab it x

hello, will do a proper name check in morning. Love to everyone. Havent had a moment to myself last few days, now time for bed before work ahain (60 hours this week, 30 in 3 days) see you all soon

Hello all. Flowery, are you taking any medication for anxiety? I felt like you and recently started taking duloxetine and it has been a miracle worker-really wish I'd taken it months ago. I managed no wine with dinner (hurray!) but had one small glass before bed. Still consider it a victory. Let's keep going over Easter...

I'm on sertraline but I think when I have real life stresses it doesn't work the same as when I'm being mental.

That's a great victory though, go you! I've drank way more than I'm willing to admit tonight. I am going to feel awful tomorrow

How does anyone join the Bus when so many of you are friends? I'm feeling a little intimated (sp?). I have a huge problem with alcohol the main problem is I don't want to ever stop drinking..

Hello.

I need help to stop my drinking completely.

So many things in my life need to change and this is the biggest thing. My 13yo doesnt need both parents to be dringing every night.

Once again i am awake in the early hours feeling guilty that this has become our way of life. Time to change is now.

Is anyone up?

Can i join the bus please?
I promise i am a longtime MNer - have name changed for this as people know me in RL on here and, basucally, i am ashamed.

I'm still up. The guilt is horrible. Ok, I've only just joined the bus (although it's probably a cavalcade of double decker a by now!).

Hi haggis thanks for replying.

My ds said to me the other day that im addicted to wine. This shoked me. But opened my eyes.

Both dh and i drink a botyle of wine a night. Dh also has a large g&t and very often at weekends also has a lunchtime beer.

Im not bothrred by alcohol during the day - very happily sit with a cup if tea and even order a cuppa to go with lunch if we eat at a pub. Its the evenings that see me reaching for the wine.

I dont want this life for my ds.

Pedro some of us have been on here a long time, but honestly most have just joined recently and chat away cheerfully. We don't actually know each other as close friends, we are just a group with a shared problem. Please don't feel intimidated. There are a few "in" jokes like Barrie the squid who travels with us and is used for slapping people who are beating themselves up and being miserable. Nothing like a bracing slap round the chops with a wet squid for making people get a grip!
Better you have pretty much described my drinking when it's bad, have a nightly half bottle on good days with occasional AF days . Very occasional. You are both welcome here along with any other newbies I have missed. The bus always gets busy over holiday periods. Keep posting and shout if you get overlooked in the hurly burly.
Flower are you ok this morning?

And here i am having not slept a wink with worry (put Barrie bavk in his box as im not wallowing just yet anyway😀) - so glad i found the bus.
Ive filled up a huge jug of wayer this morning and its on tge side in the kitchen as a reminder to drink more water - im sure part of my oroblem is by the end of the day i am so dehydrated that i just well almost neck the wine with dinner. Well its a start anyway.