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[dementedma]

We are a bus load of Babes all battling alcohol and trying to resist, reduce and get our lives back under control. Whatever you have to say, we will have heard it before and no-one will judge you. This is a warm, friendly,supportive place with tough love when needed ( slap round the face with a wet squid called Barrie). Join us here.

I drank alone mainly, too. I just wanted the effect, the blurring, the removal from reality.

Sharing these stories is so helpful; kiki your two reminded me of many similar from my past.

A different one - I woke up one morning and discovered I'd decided to 'improve' my haircut the night before, after the usual quantity of gin. I'd cut a huge chunk off the front in a blackout, and stuffed the hair down the side of the sofa to hide the evidence. I half-remembered it and hoped I was mistaken, blaming it on it 'not lying right, after I washed it' because it was (luckily?!) a recent cut. And then I found the chunk of hair. While I grew the evidence out I had weeks and weeks of shame, knowing it was my fault, and horrified...

Phew! Think I've managed tonight-ww can fuck off now. I had my usual wobble at 4 pm, I don't drink at 4 and never have but that is the exact time when the ww shows up every day.

Drinking stories- yes I have many reasons to be ashamed though I try not to dwell on the past much. One of my biggies was dancing like a loon, when I was much too old, making a spectacle of myself. Not the worst thing I ever did but pretty cringeworthy.

Been a long and tiring day but I'm going to drink large quantities of tea and watch my sexy vikings. Sigh. Wonder what vikings would make of modern day drinking culture?

Oh and one more thing, when I was little st Patrick's wasn't all about drinking, people did drink of course but it was supposed to be a saints day not a 'get shitfaced' day. I'm an atheist now but I still don't really like the way that people's beliefs have been taken over by a riot of drinking.

Marion Keyes was on desert Island discs (was very careful to spell desert , not dessert)

Hey ladies,

I'm back in the sidecar, I'm having major panic attacks and know the alcohol isn't helping.

Some of my more offputting stories include ending up with someone nearly 10 years younger than me in my bed, had no idea who that was. Actually I have a lot of 'what's your name... please leave' moments from when I was separated from dh.
Someone posted about being the drunk pal. I'm that person, there's a woman that only wants to go drinking with me as I make her look better so she can point and laugh at me... when I write these things down I genuinely hate myself.

This is probably why I drink if I'm honest, I don't think very much of myself but I can always be that slightly less self conscious drunk. Sorry this was a very selfish post again but at least it's written down for me to look at again,

Now I'm away to go and tell my massive neighbours to turn their music down

flowery that's not a 'me' selfish post, it's an 'us' post. We all get it. Hate that woman, not yourself, she's horrible.
I won't hate myself for my past exploits, hell when I'm 80 I'll have some stories!

You're moving soon, lovely new house, Big chance to redesign your life. Fresh start.

I meant the woman who feels better about herself when you're drunk obviously - the cow

Lux aye don't worry I thought you meant her. She likes to use me as her wing woman despite being 15 years my senior, she hasn't worked out yet that the guys don't want to hear her slag me off but oh well.

I know and I'm sure my dd will now be delighted when I say 'oh I did that, let me down tell you a lesson to learn'

Thanks though I know I'm being silly but we just handed in our notice for the flat so I feel like I've no safety net if it all goes tits up. I don't do well without a safety net

Yeah, I'm in a precarious position right now too and it's worrying if things go wrong but Pinot wont help. If anything it'll stop me thinking clearly. My life is like chess right now, one wrong move. Exciting though!

flowery I agree that woman is a cow. We may not be proud of our past mistakes, we may use them to remind us that we deserve better, but we also know that they happened because we were vulnerable.

It's low to take advantage of someone's vulnerability to make yourself look good. Really low.

Lux Pinot never helps. The next day is always worse than it would have been.

Flora yeah dh says I'm not allowed to go out with her anymore. It's not often he puts his foot down like that

Evening, ''tis me, mouse

Bib - I already take or use CBD or Canibidol which is cannabis and totally legal. It's not got the THC in which makes you an addict and is the trippy shit you feel etc. It does help sometimes but not always thank you for thinking of that and that as something to help xx

Made - I really hope you don't think I of all people was preaching to you xx

I've been back to the hospital but have to wait ten weeks for the results!! Plus my mental health is much worse as is my Fibromyalgia is dreadfully bad so......

DRUM ROLL apart from on this thread, I'm going to be Dory from now on as my nickname. My memory is so very bad. My memory is so very bad. My memory is s.........

That's not even funny is it? But I'm afraid I'm living off written notes, Post It notes stuck all over the place, alarms are set on my phones, we have a family planner of which my column is full.......

It's as if I'm no longer me!

So, if any of you lovely Babes get the same reply twice etc, I'm sorry xx

I'm on Nemo (our disabled son for those of you who don't know my history , and the nickname he got due to being such a strong survivor) tomorrow so a nice chilled day!

Night all, sorry not to read back properly but thank you to those who are kind enough to mention me when they have their own demons to fight.

Mouse xxx

Mouse or dory I feel you on the memory thing, it's not nice. I'm losing days and nights I don't even remember the past fully anymore

Hope you're ok

Mouse No, of course I don't I just saw it as someone who's wiser advising me and I really appreciated it

Sorry not name checked but not feeling too good today. All my own fault, I did take tablets last night (2, for the legitimate use of helping my bad back) and then woke at 2am with a slight twinge and rather than ignoring it, went in for overkill and took 5 so very silly. Was feeling sick but a bit better now, tbh I was half asleep so just very daft of me. Going to bed now as up for slimming in the morning then work 1 til 10, but will be back here at noonish. Hope everyone is ok xx

Flora I think you’re very right. One night in uni when pissed, I invited a bloke back to my place after my friend had warned me not to. We didn’t have sex thankfully but only cos he was too drunk, I thought it was hilarious. Was so dangerous, but I thought it was hilarious in my rum-wine-vodka addled brain. Other ‘hilarious’ times have included buying drink when already half cut and holding my bag absolutely still so the taxi driver didn’t hear it clink; getting off with numerous boys I never would have otherwise; never mind all the other general wankiness. Oh and pissed behind a parked car in the main road (although I do still think that one is a tiny bit funny). I once went to a lecture still pissed from the night before too (not that unusual in first year but a bit odd in third year) and walked like a baby calf up the stairs and spent half the lecture being sick in the loos.

Flowery that woman is a total fucker

Mouse hope you are ok xx

I've just spent about 15 minutes fruitlessly searching for a way to block alcohol adverts on my iPad. SIgh. Came on here to catch up and BAM there was a Tesco ad with some of my old poison on special offer. I don't feel particularly 'triggered' or anything but I don't want to see it.

So I apologise for not catching up properly as am now a bit frustrated!

Oh that's annoying elf. There really should be a way of blocking them!

I find stuff like that triggers me. Not one, on its own, but enough triggers and a switch flips on my brain. On non-drinking days I make sure alcohol bottles and wine glasses are out of sight. Because sight of wine glass+stupid ad+sight of wine+friend making flippant remark about wine may be enough to trip me up.

Morning all, nothing to add. Intake creeping up again. Have been invited to spend a week in Australia in June on a best practice, knowledge sharing thingy to do with Veterans. Needless to say, work can't afford to let me go.
No surprise there.

Morning 'tis me, mouse

Ma that's pants! What an opportunity for you and THEM!! Fuckwits! Look at the bigger picture, damn them. I hope all is well elsewhere sweetie xx

Obrigada I was thinking of you earlier and your under the desk leg swinging!! Only because I'm going to try to fit in so gentle exercise. I can't even go swimming anymore because I can't catch my breath so the eleven stairs we have are my workout atm.

made

I'm amazed that you didn't pass out or throw up after the overkill! And you're lucky may I add

I'm so glad you're ok. Can I ask what pain you have and where? I'm going to update my profile this weekend so I'll be Mrs. Boring and include all of my meds and diagnosis

Be back later, if I remember xx

PS - re the ads, on my mobile and laptop I no longer get any! Check your profile settings but I'd say that the best way to ensure that they bugger off is to contact MNHQ

Maybe wait until Monday when there are more lovely peeps at HQ to help?

Failing that, Google AdBlock and see if you can download it. It is free but they ask (kindly) if you'd give a donation to keep them going.

I'm using them on all the phones and laptops etc. Never click on them if you do get a sneaky one through because they are sure you exist!!

Thanks mouse but to be fair, I know how much is in the bank. The cost of that trip will pay the staff another month. It's not viable, unless I can find the money elsewhere.

Sorry you have SO much to contend with Mousey xx

Am I allowed a little boing even if others aren't quite so lucky? Just want to say it's day 18 here and today I won't be drinking.

DS and I have got the house to ourselves tonight so we're going to have mussels and chips for dinner ... we're the only ones who like them! As it's Saturday I'll treat myself to a cheeky Becks Blue.

Love and strength to everyone battling today.

Thank you mouse the pain is in my upper back, its like a shooting pain, i think its the chairs at work because lots of thr girls suffer from it. Im really lucky nothing happened - 5 is the most ive taken in 1 go and i wont be trying that again, god i felt awful after even if the sleep was nice

WEll done Bibbity on 18 days - thats great

Mouse sorry to hear you have so much on your plate.

hugs everyone else

I had a wobble Thursday. DH goes out Thursday nights and I secretly bought some wine on the way home. So failed miserably. He thinks I did well for 4 nights but was only 3.
However feeling awful Friday compared with the other 3 mornings is something I have experienced and can remember.

Not going to beat myself up and will continue on the drinking less (cant go AF yet)

I definitely feel my attitude has changed and guess thats half the battle.

Find the Wine Witch concept interesting especially that she appears before you may actually feel the need to start drinking. My WW appears around 10am (work stress) and although I know I wont drink til much later, she is sitting on my shoulder whispering in my ear all day

I may have to make a voodoo doll of the WW and stick invisible pins in her every time she whispers at me

Hope you all ok. My WW really did try it on with me this morning in all kinds of ways, she does make me feel miserable, telling me 'no one will know if you drink alone' kind of things and also reminding me of some shit drunk things that have happened, inc sexting a work colleague a while back (who began it, I joined in) who now believes I am totally bonkers old goer and I dislike myself immensely ever after. My own fault. I have to see him for work on Monday and just have to style it out.

Time a voodoo doll sounds like a good idea
Bibbity 18 days, that’s fantastic
Kiki I would go in Monday and try to front it out, don’t mention anything and try to act like everythings fine, but not engage with him, he ought to get the message
Mouse hope you are holding up ok
Sorry for being quite self-absorbed the last few days babes. Have been a bit silly, but head is screwed back on now (well kind of, seeing as diet has gone right down the pan) and will try to be better.

Morning!
My usual Sunday check in. It's pissing down here. Looks like the village will be flooded.
I've been so Ill with this virus still. Almost three months now! I'm now on amoxicillin for sinus infection and had to have further laser surgery on my eye Thursday.
I feel I'm falling apart. So no gym or running for me at the moment 😕
I'm climbing Goat Fell in June for Ayrshire Hospice so need to get myself in shape.
And that's another bloody pain, not one of my friends have sponsored me on just giving. Not one...the ones who always post things about Cancer and how they want to help charities and how they don't do Christmas Cards as they donate to the charity instead etc etc.
Sorry for the moan. It's the weather making me grumpy.
I need a luxury today to cheer me up!

madein1995
Hope the pain eases up. Back pain is horrible. You have my sympathy.
dementedma
How about crowdfunding? Would that work for your trip? I'm sure through the power of MN it could help?