Brave Babes...braving the Autumn

[Mrsmimsy]

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I actually want to scream....just fucking sick of feeling like this and trying so fucking hard to be normal

oh elba I know what you mean about wanting to just be normal
and I think about what is normal?
and wondering if the people around me also start fighting off thoughts of drinking in the evening sometime in the morning! I doubt it.

BUT we are trying and a lot of the time succeeding in controlling the drinking. we can only be ourselves

little one (6!) stayed in bed all night so that's a help

good luck today made

elba scream, shout, let it all out ok not when babies are sleeping, mum might commit murder but seriously, find an outlet for all that anger, boxercise helps me cos it's punching the shit out of something. You've had a tough time of it, it's understandable you feel down and certainly I can relate to trying to cheer yourself up with the bottle.

Mixed feelings about the interview really. Took ages so that was good (they gave me 10 questions, then 4 the kids had asked, then 2 scenarios) I was able to answer everything and give what I thought were good answers. I did need a bit of prodding sometimes ( say there were 4 things and theyd ticked three from what I'd said, they'd try and lead me into adressing the 4th iykwim) which is good and bad - they wouldn't do it if I was crap I suppose, but I needed prodding a few times. After hearing more about it at the interview I really want it now, more than before, but I'm not letting myself get my hopes up and will have to wait and see. They'll be getting back to me next week so will need to wait til then. Interview was in v. posh offices where the men all wore suits and the women suits and heels, so glad I wore what I did, also glad I wore the patent/better looking slightly uncomfy shoes than my old faithfuls

Hope everyone is ok

Thanks 42 and glad the little one allowed you a full nights sleep! Hope you get a repeat tonight!

Spent the day mainly in bed hungover (I am working tonight so have an excuse). Missed a lovely sunny morning- I had planned a morning run, could of gone to the beach. Instead I completely wasted a day, and nights mean I won't really get a chance to see daylight until Sunday. Scary thing is that this was normal life not long ago...getting hammered the night before any free day. Actually last winter I think I barely made it out in daylight hours on days off unless I had something planned, and then it was a struggle not to get too drunk the night before. No wonder I got so bloody depressed really

Problem is I seem to forget after a few days af why I don't want to drink. I've succeeded in reminding myself again so hopefully got it out my system for a bit, but the idea of saying never again still terrifies me so the odd lapse seems kind of excusable and inevitable.

Going to try and push the running thing as a distraction I think; I can't run hungover. Just entered a half marathon for February, and have been looking at marathon training plans to start in January. Going to aim for 10 miles by Christmas- maybe, hopefully, setting tangible goals will provide incentive to not drink.

Sorry to waffle on, got to get ready for work now. No alcohol left, so hopefully no morning drinking between shifts. Hope everyone's ok, and made hope the interview went well!

Hi just a quick post from me, I follow the thread but rarely post.

Was just having a bit of a wobble (haven't drank) but staying in not buying any drink and none in the house.

I really struggle between 5-7/8 as coming home to a quiet house in winter is quite hard. Hope everyone is well.

First world problem alert... lala pup was taken in to be spayed today... by my good friend and her walker.brought home with the cone of shame on, she started hyperventilating so had to dash her back to the vets. By which time she had calmed down. Grrr. Having the week from hell.

Hope the rest of you are ok

buddha try switching your routine around. Get straight in the bath when you get in or eat straight away. Plan a large hot drink or bowl of soup. Crack straight on with those jobs you've been planning to do. Hoover the house or do an exercise dvd. Anything really to just distract you through those tricky hours

Elba I get what you mean. I used to feel a bit like that. It was like a pressure cooker building up and once I'd had a drink it sort of released and went away. If you can have long AF breaks in between (like you have been doing) it's not so bad. As long as it doesn't creep back up to daily drinking or drinking more often than you really want to, it could just be the next stepping stone for you.

ODAAT remember x

made fingers crossed for you x

Morning babes, just checking in. Day 6 alcohol free and aiming for an alcohol free weekend. But as Faire says I am taking it one day at a time

Well done obrigada. I'm on day zero as usual

Pressure cooker sounds about right Faire. I guess as long as it doesn't creep up again then this level of drinking is far better than things used to be, and an acceptable compromise for the moment.

lala hope pup (and you!) are ok.

Just managed a 7 hour sleep between nights which never happens...guess that's the benefit of not spending the first two hours or more drinking!

Hey all. Had a rare day off today and manages to get a lot done. The fruit for the Christmas cake is now plumping up in brandy and spices and it smells lovely. Will bake it tomorrow one I have to dishes selling poppies.

Huh? That should read "once I have finished selling poppies"

Well done obrigada ma that sounds really productive

My day's been good - got covered by glitter as someone saw fit to give children glitter at the coffee morning but had great fun. Have another interview tomorrow, at Tesco, I did it last year and enjoyed it and earned a few bit. It's begining to feel a lot like christmas now and have been listening to xmas songs on spotify. Did briefly debate getting dog reindeer antlers but she'd never keep them on. My favourite xmas song so far is Marys Boy Child by Boney M

Ooh la forgot to say, hope pup is ok and you are not going grey because of pup! How is she sleeping, when Lil got done she didn't sleep well cos of the cone. Although she was an odd case as vet said she'd likely be out of it for at least two days and 2 hours later she was trying to jump on and off the settee and run ... if she's a bugger sleeping cos of the cone/pain, maybe let her sleep on bed for a bit? Helped with ours and she settled back into own bed after a while pain medication is odd for dogs though I think - we go through an op and get heavy duty painkillers,dogs have an op and just get told to rest. Anyway enough of the rambling, hope you're both ok, I remember the puppy days were VERY trying but at least you're kept busy I suppose

Also, even more christmassy - the costa christmas drinks are out. Am very pleasently surprised that the lindt hot choc is lowest in calories and will be taking advantage after interview as costa is in the same shopping centre as Tesco

Help. Years on this bus and I still need to stop drinking. Will somebody please give me the kicking I need to stop killing myself with drink.
Back up to almost a bottle and a night and feeling like boiled shite.

Demented. Snap. Was a bit better in the week, half a bottle Tues and weds but more Thurs then over a bottle last night because it was Friday. I imaging I will need to have a drink earlier today just to shift the hangover. Any ideas what we can do to stop? :-(.

mrs and ma I will probably be feeling the same when I get up tonight. Got given a bottle of wine at work, was going to leave it at work but it made its way to the car then the kitchen and is now open and being drunk . Only been home 15 bloody minutes. Wish I knew the answer and that it didn't involve stopping for good

Hope you don't feel too bad later, Elba, drink lots of water before you go to bed x

ma and mimsy and anyone else looking for suggestions, how about this?

Six weeks to go until Christmas. You can easily lose two or three lbs in that time and then give yourself permission to put it back on again during Christmas week

Then commit to Dry January. There will be loads of other people doing it and there is often less pressure to join in with stuff.

So, healthy eating now, no drinking (or at least limit to one day a week) and try to focus on the positives of treating yourself well. That's what I've been doing this month (as I'm doing Dry November too) and it's rather pleasant when you get into it.

Feeling better about yourself will lift your spirits too. So easy to be down on yourself and sink further. Try to see the light at the end of the tunnel and just hope that it's not a bloody great train coming!

Meanwhile... < thwack >

< apologies to Barrie and puts him back in the tank >

< picks ma up off the floor and puts her firmly on the bus >

Faire...good advice, tomorrow will start the healthy part for this week including gym class in the morning.. but ...6 WEEKS TILL CHRISTMAS???! How the hell did that happen?????

Thanks faire ( and Barrie). I keep saying I will be AF during the week and drink at weekends but I never even get past Monday!

How are you feeling Ma? I had a nap, feel a bit better. Going to have some prosecco in a minute so will feel great after that....planning on taking ot easy tonight though as want to do my gym class in the morning so need to be able to drive. How's everyone else?

ma and mrs, exactly the same here. Wish there was an easy way to break the cycle. Hope you are both ok.

faire are you a motivational speaker perchance?! Some good inspiration there...

made pup was very sore and sorry for herself, ripped her dressing off almost immediately and keeps evilling me from underneath the cone of shame. She seems to have perked up a bit, although is doing a lot of sleeping (mostly in our bed ). She is also frustrated at not being allowed out much, so is letting her feelings known by shitting in the house. She's been toilet trained for months, the little rascal. Worried sick about how she is going to react to the fireworks this eve...

elba, how you holding up?

All the other babes, hope you are having a good weekend.

Well, I have learned I have to pick dd up from the airport at 10pm on Monday, so that makes Monday AF. Need to find something to do all the other nights. Thursday night I am going soldier ogling at a black tie dinner at Edinburgh castle so there will be wine - and port passed to the left. Here's a pic from last year...

Evening babes, day 7 for me, think my biggest problem is boredom which is usually solved by going to a friends and sharing couple bottles of wine but end up in bad form the next day and spend money I can't afford. Instead I am going to stay home this evening and white knuckle it until I can hit the bed at 9!