Brave Babes...braving the Autumn

[Mrsmimsy]

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Hope I have Robbie Robertson (The Band) about life on the road with Dylan, and Trevor Noah, Born a Crime, about being born mixed race in South Africa during apartheid. I've already finished Monty Don's book about his dog Nigel .

Lux I have come to the realisation over then last three years I have been on and off the bus, that I will never have a 'normal' relationship with alcohol. Once I have had a glass, I can't just stop and drink tea, I will keep going until the bottle is gone. I sometimes pray that drinking will become as unacceptable as smoking has become; but that would take pleasure away from those people who don't have my issues.

Dave not sure whether it's a detox thing but it is common. Loads of water, fresh air, radox in the bath. I had the taste of metal in my mouth for about 2 weeks, it was weird but I just kept going. Welcome and good luck

Sweet I am exactly the same. I have no 'off' button. One glass = what's the point . All or nothing, not normal people drinking

Struggling with Day 3.Doesn't help that the swanky new scales arrived today which do BMO and everything and after a week of dieting and actually losing weight, the correct reading shows that I am even heavier than I originally thought! I know it's just a number in the sense that I can feel I've lost a couple of pounds, but it seems as if I've failed and so my reaction is to hit the fuck it self destruct button!

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Sorry, x-post. Dave I've had it last up to a week, certainly 3-4 days wouldn't be out of the ordinary. Your body does lots of weird stuff whilst it detoxes - spots is a good one after everyone tells you how good your skin will look. Disturbed sleep, after being told that alcohol disrupts your sleep patterns - and freaky, fevered dreams.

Ma, the important thing now is to only use one set of scales, and base your progress on those. Don't hit the fuck it button, push it out of reach.

Spanna did you and Ddog have a lovely frosty beach walk this morning?

ma don't hit the fuck it button it will only make you feel worse.

Use the old scales if you want. New ones can wait for a day when you are in a more positive frame of mind.

Did dd take your measurements too? Use those as a guide instead and ditch the scales altogether?

Weight can fluctuate quite a lot even in a day. Especially for women. Keep at it x

Thanks. I've had to give in a pop a couple of neurofen. My head is throbbing, and it aches all down the back of my neck too. All good though if it is just a symptom of the body detoxing.

My scales can fuck right off! They tell me something completely different each day! I think I'm going to go with how my clothes fit as there is nothing more demotivating as doing all the right things for a couple of days only to see the lbs have increased rather than gone down!

ma there is massive variation between scales. Continuity is the key to see progress; same set of scales, placed on same surface (carpet v floor can effect accuracy) and weigh in at the same time of day. You have lost weight so therefore have made a great start. Measurements are also a great idea.

Had a burst of energy and have blitzed my bedroom, made a physio appointment, booked yoga and Pilates classes for the next month and done an online shop full of healthy stuff that I probably won't eat. Need to sort my diet out a bit too (ie stop living on bananas, toast and ice cream). Too many rules usually leads to a bit of an obsession so just aiming for three structured meals and my five a day. Probably getting a bit carried away, but seems to be all or nothing with me.

Off work again tomorrow (strict 48 hour rule for good reason) but feel fine now, and a bit guilty about it . And have day off thurs too. Hoping the productivity continues so I can at least make good use of the time. Would usually just see the drinking opportunities when I'm off

Sweet very frosty 😃 Here's today's sunset & sunrise x

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Fabulous, Spanna. Just got in from SweetDog's evening walk - going to be another frosty one tomorrow.

Elba, Bananas, ice cream and toast sounds perfectly balanced to me

I'm focussing on just the booze for a couple of weeks, if I can get past 14 days, to food will start to sort itself out.

Ma stay away from the wine. What's for dinner?

Elba I'm also off work, at least you've had a surge of energy. I have spent 2 days avoiding all that I should have done, mostly housework which I hate with passion!!!!! I clearly have many other things to do Everything, especially paperwork has mounted up. I walk into the room see the pile and walk straight back out again Where is my housework fairy when I need her?

I've also got a mild but persistent headache. I also feel I need a reward for doing all my work today, and it's cooking time, all of this usually means it's time for a drink.

I am so full of tea I might bubble with it, so I'm occupying my hands with this thread instead.

Mip that's what this bus is for - distract, distract, distract. Let the moments pass and that urge will go. Are you cooking something yummy? Set yourself some really nice treats, can you get your nails done tomorrow and use the money that you would have spent on wine? average bottle would be roughly £6 - that's £18 (in my case double that as I could sink 2 bottles on a normal night) Keep going

Yeah, cooking a new recipe that needs attention and not something I can do mindlessly with wine

I don't like most beauty things, I can't stand the feel of make up on my face or paint on my nails, so nails would be more a threat than a treat! I might treat myself to an expensive magazine instead, I wouldn't usually spend £5 on a magazine but if I haven't had a bottle of wine I can!

Head is pounding

Thanks guys. Did meatballs in a spicy tomato and spinach sauce with tagliatelle. DD 1 told me off for eating white carbs! Have had 3 N and TS.
Spanna the photos are lovely.
Lux lots of water and some painkillers.

Sudden massive cravings and don't know what to do with myself. Think mainly because I know can't do anything about it- no car, it's freezing and I'm still quarantining myself. Would be ok if it was only one night. Considering diazepam just because I'm dreading tonight and panicking, but that's not exactly a great alternative

Elba have you had your dinner yet? Try and distract yourself with anything - watch an old faulty towers clip on youtube, look up your starsign for the year online (I know we know it's bollocks), have a bath, go for a walk around the block, remember to breathe the craving will pass You can do this Babe x

Elba try not to think passed this evening, it's just one evening, you'll feel different tomorrow x

Hang in there!

I'm cooking chilli con carnie and ALWAYS have a glass or 3 of red whilst making it. I had a massive craving a bit earlier, but have managed (I think) to ride it out. Ate a ton of cheese instead

elba try not to worry the panic will only last 20 mins or so. Just sit tight and do ANYTHING for the next half hour. What are you reading at the moment? Can you do one of those colouring in thingies? Break a few pencils or scribble with felt tips if it helps?

ma yum that sounds great. I think I physically need carbs, I'm sure they cant possibly be responsible for my flabby thighs. 😕

luxury I've been feeling really queasy for the past 3 days and I'm all spotty (apart from that, I'm a beauty queen obvs! ) but it seems to be getting better. How's the head?

Love to all, I'm trying to get better at NC.

I'm wobbling too Elba decided not to take painkillers yet as the headache is helping me not crack.
Could you take a shower and do a bed time routine?
Paint your toes?
Any distraction.

Elba - hang in there. You know the drill, not that it helps when you're in the middle of the craving - but distract, distract, distract and it will pass. It will pass, impossible as that seems right now. What sort of stuff do you like doing - will a book help, or is that not enough of a distraction? Take care, lovey.

Day 3 is a predictable reversal of day 2 - as ever. I am so depressed at how well I know this cycle! But I must believe that this time it will stick, otherwise I will never gear up to start on the AF path again. Anyway, yesterday's manic energy has been replaced by a sludgy sloth (aided and abetted by being back at work). Can't be bothered to do anything at all. On the upside, the way I feel, I couldn't be fussed to amble to the fridge even if there was any wine in it, so that's a plus.

To my shame, a John Lewis order arrived for me today (sadly while i was out - a lot of explaining to do to DH). I have only a very, very hazy memory of ordering it on boxing day. 9 boxes worth of it. An extraordinary haul of stuff - all of which I could in some alternative universe have wanted/needed, but not in this one. So, a lot of returns to do - and another incentive to stay AF, to stave off bankruptcy.

Hope everyone is doing well. Spanna your pic is gorgeous and makes me want to leave the city immediately. Most things do that, these days.