Argh I feel so cross with myself!!
DP is lovely, like really really nice, kind, patient. I am horrid.
This morning I was getting ready to go a hospital appointment at the same time he was getting ready to go to work. I get stressed and frustrated about these appointments. It's just a clinic kind of thing because I had a pulmonary embolism last year. They don't know why and it was probably down to the pill but every time I go to this bloody clinic I see someone different who hasn't read my notes and wants to do loads of blood tests that I've already had and it takes ages and I get more stressed about being late for work. Everyone is very nice but nothing about it is efficient.
Anyway. I know I need to leave at exactly eight minutes past eight to get the train I need to get to the hospital with time to check in etc. DP usually leaves about twenty past so I said I'd go ahead but he says he will walk with me. I should have just said I wanted to go on my own. He took ages doing his laces up and choosing what crisps to take out of the cupboard for his lunch. Okay not ages but the clock was ticking past the time I wanted to leave.
Then he starts faffing with the rubbish going to take it outside and I was getting irate and said he'd have to catch me up if he insisted on doing it now. It did come out very snappily though which I felt guilty about. Then he said he'd forgotten his umbrella and it was raining so I said 'too bloody bad, I'm going to be late' as it was I did miss the train I specifically wanted to get which stressed me out further but I did still get there on time.
Then he looked hurt and didn't speak to me or look at me for the whole of the tube journey and just walked off when he got to his stop. I'm in the doghouse for speaking to him in a horrible tone. And I know I do it. I just get stressed out and everything I say comes out like that. I need to stop doing it but how?! I have apologised but I know I'll end up doing it again.
Disclaimer: I know people have bigger relationship problems than this.
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Why am I so horrible to lovely DP?
MadHattersWineParty · 27/07/2016 10:47
He sounds like a faffer, which would drive me nuts. I hate it when people claim to be ready at say, 10 o'clock but then spend ten minutes finding their keys, shoes, brushing their hair, checking their Facebook and peeing. Do that BEFORE we have to leave, not when we're about to walk out of the door!
He's made himself upset and angry by dithering and making you late. Next time, leave without him. If you have to leave at 8am, just go whether he's ready or not. If it's important to him, he'll buck up his ideas and be on time next time. If not, well, at least you'll be on time!
You don't sound horrible at all, though 
Your last post has made me think he isn't that nice after all.
Did he ask how your appointment went or did he just text you to tell you how badly you had him feel? 
I read your title and thought I need this thread as I can be a horrible grumpy cow to my DH when I am in pain a lot of the time but DH would never have let me get stressed just before a hospital appointment like this.
We all have irritating habits, I am always early for stuff and DH has been known to faff but over the years we have learnt we sometimes need to control our natural fuckwitedness instincts so we can support each other and this actually sounds like one of those times he should have been thinking about you rather than himself or bins.
It's just a snapshot though isn't it and it must be hard to see a lot of people calling your DH, especially if he is genuinely nice 99% of the time. How's the rest of your relationship generally, I can imagine a PE must have been terrifying. Illness can put such a strain even on the best of relationships.
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Since June 2015. I had the PE in March 2015. I was actually with someone else when I had the PE, it was a short gap between the relationships 
So officially not very long but that's never seemed to matter.... but perhaps this is the time where you get to really really know someone's behaviours.
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